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    Lifeline – Chapter 11

    Story written on January 26, 2011 by gr8d8.
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    Tina’s Dream

    Is it possible I’m having a reaction to the medication?

    It seems to be making me a little, you know, hysterical.

    Really. 

    Okay.  Fine.  It’s just me. (Laughter)

    (A long silence)

    I think I’m getting stir crazy living inside my own head like this.

    You don’t know what it’s like Bette, talking to yourself all day, just listening to a voice in your head.

    It makes you feel freaking insane, like you want to jump out a window or something.

    It’s lonely.

    And it’s a little frightening wondering if I’m ever gonna stop being this way, if I’m ever gonna be normal again.

    Please hear me, B. 

    I’m trying really hard. 

    I promise I am. 

    I just feel so lost…

    Please.

    Help me find my way back to you. (Soft weeping)

     

     

    “T?  It’s me, baby.  I wanted to read you some poetry today, if that’s okay.” 

    Bette sat beside Tina’s bed wearing her usual outfit: Blue and white patterned gown, blue hat, blue booties, loose-fitting blue mask.  

    Tina’s face was noticeably less swollen and her color was definitely better.  They had changed the bandage on her head.  The new one was quite a bit smaller.  She made a mental note to ask about that.  The I.V. bags were the same, as were the other machines that surrounded the bed.  The heart monitor remained on the fingertip of her left index finger and the thin oxygen tube still threaded its way into her nose.  A catheter ran inconspicuously down the side of the bed to a bag hanging there.  Bette had memorized every line and tube, every monitor and the sound it made.  The doctor had decreased the amount of sedative she was receiving intravenously,   and it was possible she could regain consciousness anytime.  That was the hope anyway. 

    Doctor Wilde had warned Bette about the restraints earlier when they spoke.  As a precaution when he decreased the dosage of her sedative, the doctor had instructed her nurses to put restraints on Tina’s wrists which would prevent her from thrashing around should she awaken suddenly.  It was a safety measure that was meant to protect her from further injuring herself, but it was always difficult on loved ones, he said.

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    2. Excellent as always, Nell. Two thumbs up! =) They’re not there yet but at least they’ve both made some progress. Bette teased Tina and laughed again and Tina babbled on and on to amuse herself and is hell-bent on being with Bette again. I’ll be right here waiting for Tina’s awakening. I love this line, Nell. => “I love the small hollow at the base of your throat where I have left a thousand kisses like wishes in a well.” (As an aside, that hollow called the suprasternal notch was mentioned in “The English Patient”.) Anyway, this post cheered me up, Nell. Thanks a bunch! =)

    3. Thanks for another beautiful chapter. I’m so glad Tina is aware of her surroundings. Hopefully when the sedatives get out of her system she’ll wake up…

    5. Wonderful update. It’s great that Tina is trying so hard to get back to Bette. And her thoughts are helping her out of the subconscious and since the doctor is cutting back on some of the medications, just maybe, she will start to awaken especially if Bette continues to read to her and talk to her. Hopefully she will watch for any signs of wakefulness like Tina moving her finger or big toe as Tina is trying to do. If she is covered Bette won’t see the toe but she can see the finger and, of course, she will see her tears if she cries as Tina is trying to do. Has Alice brought all the things on the list to the hospital yet? The music and other things that Bette wants for her to have in her room should help so much. Alice needs to hurry back with those items. Maybe she will come back in the next chapter. Fantastic chapter. Thanks for posting.

    6. I’ve got to tell you, I am so loving this story. That’s an incredible idea, letting us in on Tina’s subconscious. If only they could communicate that way. Looking forward to your next post with great anticipation!

    7. I really enjoy reading this story. It is one of my favorite Tibette stories! I know we need to be patient because everything will be fine, but reading it makes me wanna cry because it is beautifully written!

    8. Hey, Nell. I just finished rereading this post. Tina’s reflections on love choked me up. Sorry if I sound too sappy but I can’t help it. I feel bad that Tina feels helpless and stuck in oblivion but I’m glad that their lava-hot love and their rich history and colorful memories are keeping her sane and hopeful. They are each other’s lifeline and I look forward to reading how they both inch closer to their reunion. Again, huge thanks for such an engaging and well-written story, Nell. Cheers! =)

    10. i’ll tell you, if anyone did that to me, when my hands were free, i would kill them… anyway… love this story… and i also know tina will work her way back to bette.. keep reading bette, tina is listening… pps

    11. Thank you, Nell, for another wonderful chapter. You write so beautifully, taking us with such delicacy through Tina’s thoughts – her fear, her concern for Bette, her jokes and teasing, her love. And always phrases leap out – I agree with mightymouse’s choice, and also when Tina speaks of fighting for her life and says: “Presumably that’s what I’m doing, although it feels a lot more like loitering – or a very dull and solitary vacation on the shores of oblivion.” Have I said how much I’m LOVING your story?!! I want Tina to wake up, but don’t want your story to end, so I’m relying on you to accommodate that for me!

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