“Oh, I would have named my daughter Tamiah. I love that name.” She answers.

“Yeah, it’s cute.” I tell her. We just lay on our back for a while; I don’t notice that she is looking at me.

“I feel old.” She says after a while.

I laugh. “What? Old? Why?”

“Well, you are 32 and I’m 36. I just feel old.” She tells me and I kiss her cheek.

“You are not old. You are amazing.” I let her know and kiss her.

“I don’t know.” She says.

“Well, I know.”

She smiles and then, in one swift movement she has me on my back with her on top of me. I lay my hands on her back while her elbows are next to my head. Butterflies are taking over my stomach and making me feel so weird, in a good way. She kisses me and the butterflies go crazy. My skin is tingling, my heart is beating fast and I just want to be as close to her as possible. Our tongues met and a moan gets trapped into the kiss, neither of us caring who produced it. When breathing becomes hard, we pull apart and I smile at her which makes her smile to. She brings one of her fingers to my lips and traces them while I keep smiling.

“You have a breathtaking smile…” She whispers. I kiss her finger and then her lips.

“You are breathtaking.” I tell her. She smiles and we kiss again.

We spend the day at the beach: talking, laughing, hugging, kissing and I’ve never felt better. I just feel… It’s so difficult to explain, I never felt this way before… Is this the ‘in love’- feeling? I thought I was in love with James but compared to what I feel now, my feelings for him were… nothing. I cared for him and loved him but I was never in love with him I guess.

After an amazing day, she drives me home and it takes 30 minutes to kiss goodbye… I giggle softly when I think about it while making dinner. Gosh, I can sing and dance from happiness, but I hold it in. I don’t want Sterling and Jolene to think I’m crazy. I giggle again.

TBC!!!