“Um…I’m not sure Dane, I’ll have to see what happens, I’m in the middle of an article and the deadline is in two days. Can I let you know?” I glanced at her quickly and saw that she had that puzzled and upset look again. I looked away.

“Yeah course Alice, just let me know ok? I miss our film nights. I’ll even let you choose the movie” She gave me a weak smile, and remained to look a little hurt.

“Ok, I’ll call you tomorrow morning” I said as I fiddled awkwardly with a napkin on the table.

The other girls around the table were discussing what they would all be buying for Tina’s baby. Tina was now five months pregnant. In the corner of my eye I could see Lara take hold of Dana’s hand. I tried to look as if I was listening to the discussion, but I gave up. Sadness engulfed me as thoughts of Dana swam around in my head, memories of when we had been so close, memories of how we were before Lara. My eyes felt moist and tears threatened to come and I quickly excused myself, saying I was going to the bathroom.

I rushed into the bathroom of the Planet and steadied myself on the surface. I was breathing heavily and a tear fell down my face. I moved my head up and saw myself in the mirror. I was a mess. As always, I thought angry thoughts when I saw myself. Why can’t I be like Lara? Would Dana fall in love with me then?  Of course she would fall in love with me, if I was someone completely different.

Dana

Alice had been acting so strange ever since I started dating Lara and it was really worrying me, she seemed hurt and upset and I couldn’t stand seeing her like that. I couldn’t work out what had brought it on, I wondered if she was jealous of my relationship with Lara, maybe she was feeling lonely because she is single. The two months with Lara have been great, but I couldn’t stop thinking about Alice the whole time. I know Lara really cares for me and wants things to get serious, but I know deep down I don’t want that, I care for Lara but it’s nothing compared to my love for Alice. When Alice got up to go to the bathroom, looking very upset I decided to follow and find out exactly what was going on. I walked through the door of the bathroom to find Alice leaning against the sink and looking into the mirror. I looked at her in the mirror and could see that there were tears in her eyes.