Shane: Carm, can you hear me?

Jenny: Wake up Carmen. I’m here.

Kit: You two have got to stop that if you want her alive. Sit on those chairs, and do not bother her! She’s sleeping. Both of you get some rest. Jenny, you still have to go cover Cezar’s position for him. He’s not getting released any time soon.

Jenny: I don’t want to.

Kit: Jenny, do it for Carmen.

Jenny grudgingly agreed, but made Kit promise to call her every time something happened. She left to get changed and start work again. She was going to have to keep the finances in check and do Cezar’s job.

Kit was so sad seeing Shane just sit there everyday refusing to move unless she needed to go to the bathroom. Jenny was the same. Whenever she had nothing to do, she’d be here sitting and watching Carmen like a hawk. Kit had to send Alice away to watch the clubs for her. Carmen had been sleeping for a week already. Through the week, Shane had to live through Carmen’s 5 heart failures and one infection along with a weeklong fever. Kit was worried if by the time Carmen got better, Shane would fall over. She tried coaxing Shane to get some rest, but Shane would be in and out of the bathroom and that was it. At most a shower.

Shane: Carm, I always wanted to watch you sleep because you look gorgeous that way, but now I wish you would open your eyes and look at me.

She held onto Carmen’s hand.

Shane: I would give up everything in life to just see your eyes again. I would gladly trade my life for a smile from you. You know those things you said to me when you told Carlos why you chose me over him. I want to do those things for you. But you gotta let me. You have to wake up for me.

Shane rested her head next to Carmen’s hand. She had been tearless ever since she got to the hospital. She wished she could cry. Her sadness was all pent up. It was killing her. She died every time Carmen had a complication. She felt a knife through her heart seeing Carmen lying there with tubes sticking out of her. It was an unspeakable pain. It was intangible. You couldn’t roll it up into a ball and throw it away. You couldn’t remove it at all. It was just stuck there. Shane watched Carmen until she fell asleep. Carmen’s body wasn’t moving, but her mind was. She had been there with Shane everyday. She cried when she saw Shane’s hurt expression.