Night Returning 4

Ch 8

I feel soon I will sink into you….

What do you think?

There’s still blood…..

In your hair….

Got a bruise…..

Of the……… year…..

The drums beat…

The…drum….beat….

Then needles and pins. This rush of the earth and me falling, falling down. Landing on the soft marsh somewhere in the Bayou. Never saw my last sunrise, never had my last meal. Just that incredible feel of her inside me. That incredible feel of her taking all my life, all my worries, all my failures, taking them from me. The image shared, of me as a little girl….singing that old Prince song on my tricycle, of me cutting class with Rachel to drink vodka, my first orgasm, random things like me and my dad watching Bruce Lee movies, of mom telling me how great Stairway to heaven is, she was taking all this from me.

The beat, the drums that are her, they where loud. So loud. She stands over me, the moon the only light. Huge trees that seemed alive, that murky sound of the Bayou…..crickets, worms, all waiting to see what would happen. And me waiting…she drained me…I was a goner….then that magic from her wrist…

Drops after drop and I drank it down. It’s funny to feel your heart stop. Funny to see the world as a dead thing. The pain that followed unreal, cramps, the organs stopping all at once, the spasm…the blankness…the quite and the nothing……

Then like a pair of glasses when you can’t see, the night was alive to me. I could see the brown of the soft muddy earth, the green moss covered limbs of the oak trees, I could see the insects of the earth marching on, proud that something not from their reality could see how proudly they moved.

I licked the blood that lingered, no meal, no kiss, no sunlight morning after a raining day, no dreams where better than that hot taste of her blood, her life mixed with mine…she laughed, she smiled. She was the most spellbinding, wild feral thing to me. High on a branch she waved to me to meet her. I thought about it then was there in a rush, so high so fast she had to grab me or I would have kept going.