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Paradise lost & found
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I walk over to you and pretend to be interested in your newly found cooking skills. The truth is that just being in the same room as you is making my heart ache and I need to get nearer. I’m drawn, like a moth to a flame and I can’t resist.
“That looks fancy, what are you making?”
“It’s just stir fry chicken and vegetables.”
“Well, it smells… amazing.”
You smell amazing. And I remember. I remember burying my face in your neck, the whole length of our bodies touching, merging, and being surrounded by your smell and it feeling like home.
“Did Jodie teach you how to cook? I hear she’s a great cook.”
I throw in her name to remind myself that you are not mine, not anymore.
“No, actually I taught myself. I sometimes cook for me and Angie when we are alone makes me feel like you know, like we are a family.”
You smile at me and for a moment I think I forget to breathe.
“I have to cook for you sometime.”
You move away, to the table, to cut some vegetables and I am left looking at the pots over the fire. The word family cut through me like a knife. That should have been us, you, me and Angie, a family. I wanted that. Damnit, I still want that.
I turn around to face you. It’s time to stop running.
“Bette.”
The way your name comes out of my mouth is half pleading and I can see from the rigid set of your back that you are not at ease.
“Turn around.”
I need to see your face I need to see your eyes. You always said so much more with your eyes than with your mouth.
You turn around and I see so much, fear, warring with desire and longing so powerful that it sets me on fire.
“Look, I know you don’t want to hurt Jodie.”
Last chance for you to push me away, tell me you love her, and I’ll go. Give me one more hint that you feel what I’m feeling and I don’t care what everyone else might think.
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It’s not so often that I’m left speachless. Well right now I am, and somebody is already in the shower damn.
Umm…wow, just wow. Hope to see more from you soon :)
Wow! That was an amazing depiction of an exceptionally hot scene. My favorite line: Your eyes are asking me what your head doesn’t let you voice. I love your work so please post something again soon.
That was awesome!! I could use a shower too after that.
Great line from this wonderful snapshot of their lives: “You say it like you feel lost, like you are caught in a story you didn’t write and you don’t like the place you find yourself at.” Exactly. I feel their sense of urgency….that they would explode at a single touch.
Impressed !! x
welcome.. that was yummy… hope to read more
Welcome to fan fic goodness. I loved this and it was Tina’s POV that you used which was interesting the way she rationalized this.
Really enjoyed this chapter from Tina’s point of view. It was so HOT, just like Tina this season. Now, we need to read Bette’s point of view. Please? This was great, please write more soon for us. Thanks again for sharing this with us.
This is a wonderful way of expressing Tina’s POV. I love how she knew what she wanted but did not just bully herself into the situation.
I have watched that scene a few times myself and I love your additions!
i love to revisit that scene on the screen and in writing…thank you
WOW……………………..
Great writing! Hope you will post something soon.
That was so smoking hot! I need a cigarette and a cold shower, lol.
Wow other than that I think I’m quite speechless
I just want to thank anyone who took the time to read Paradise Lost & Found, the views count was a very pleasant surprise :D and I wanted to thank especially everyone who took the time to leave a reply. You guys rock, thank you so much. Feedback makes it all worth while :D So I thought I should just write some quick (or not so quick *cough* everyone feel free to skip this part) replies and here they are: Kendra35: Ah, I live to make people I meet speechless *evil* as long as they regain the ability to speak afterwards otherwise who’d be there to talk to me? *shock* Lol. Now seriously thank you for your words. I think you made my head swell. In a good way that is… and I’m just going to shut up now, lol. Bailey: Thanks :D Well, you got your wish, I just decided to write part 2 – Bette’s POV. I hope you like this one too.SydneyWade: Thank you :D Yeah, it was such a hot scene that it made me want to see more of it and there seemed to be so much subtext left to explore that I just had the urge to fill in the missing pieces. I’m glad you liked it. And that is one of my favourite lines from what I wrote too. kbergin47: Thank you :D Ermm… well, I kind of did take a shower after writing it, lol.azmama: Thanks :D That is another one of my favourite lines from this story. I confess I was torn between chuckling and being serious while writing it because I thought since the theme for this season is being meta that was me trying my hand at being a wee bit tongue in cheek about the writing of the show *blush* I am glad that you could feel their sense of urgency while reading this, that was what I was trying to convey. They were denying their feelings for so long and now finally it has reached a breaking point and they just can’t help themselves and I wanted to capture that. allyemmerson: Thank you :D Oh, wow, a award winning author read my wee story *bows* *blush*AmandaMG: Thanks :D It’s good to be here. And again with the wow at a award winning author reading my story *bows* ecstasythrumusic: Thank you :D It was a pleasure to try my hand at a L Word fic. Though I really couldn’t help myself, this season is taking me to a whole new level of obsessive *blush* I feel that Tina went to Bette with a plan to see where they stood with each other and then she just threw caution and rational thinking out the window, lol. I think the whole cheating situation is weighting heavily on her mind hence the mentioning of Jodie’s name in almost every conversation but at the same time Bette is the love of her life and she is drawn to her.Dainty: Thank you :D I so agree with you, Tina is smoking hot this season. Ok, I always thought she was hot all through the seasons but this one has seen her taking her hotness to a whole new level :D So you got an answer to your wishes and I did wrote Bette POV, I hope it’s not a ‘be careful what you wish for’ situation and you like it. pattifloatn: Thanks :D I had never tried my hand at writing a first person POV and I had never written a L word fic so I was a bit worried about how it would turn out. I wanted to do Tina’s justice, both she and Bette are such complex characters and they find themselves in a messy situation that is pretty much open to interpretation. It was fun and scary to write. I’m glad you liked it.Ic2138: Thank you :D I watched it a lot *cough* one could even argue that writing Bette’s POV was just an excuse to watch it a few more times, lol. I’m glad you liked the additions.BetteAndTinaForever: Thank you for reading :D And since I have this chance here, thank you for all the spoilers you dug up for us *bows* And another award winning author reading my story, tks *bows again* You made my weeks :Dntnrml61: Thank you :Djb621: Thank you :D Yep, more coming up.yws: Thanks :D Lol. Have fun *wink*slayergirlkal: Thank you :D Speechless is quite high praise :D Good speechless I mean, lol.Rau: Thanks :D Mmm… you know the 2nd scene was so amazing on the screen and so well done and it feels so complete that it’s quite hard to try and add anything to it. But I’ll never say never :D
Wow, that was spectacular! A thoughtful and beautiful interpretation of that scene. You are a very talented writer. I sure hope you stick around and treat us with more of your stories.
That was sensational. Loved loved loved the insight into what Tina was thinking. More please!!!
yeah!!!! hows about u continue….i wanna know what they said to each other the 2nd time at T’s, on T’s bed.
WOWdeffo one of my favslove it, thank u
ALWAYS MY FAVORITE EPISODE