“What’s going on why are you guys still up?” I ask.

“Shane honey we have been calling you for hours…..you friend Cheri stopped by…..she was drunk and bleeding from her head……she needed your help….she said you where the only one who could help her.” mom said worried….upset…."she would not let us help her or call for help…she ran off……"

“Cheri…..Jaffe?”

“Yes…..she said that you where very close friends….she was very drunk. Shane……How do you know her…..you never mentioned her before?”

Yup mom…..

Had a way of getting to the bottom of things…..Shane is this your half drunk bottle of vodka….Shane what time is it…..Shane what do you mean you are dropping out of school? Shane…what did you feed your brother….Shane what’s with the drunk bleeding older woman banging on your door at this time of night?

Sorry mom….sorry that I fucked a married mother of two….Sorry she can’t take the hint that it’s over…Sorry I hope you didn’t leave Fluffy alone because I think I know what’s for dinner tomorrow…..bunny a la Jaffe….Sorry mom……Sorry dad…..

I thought this to myself as I stood there all good feeling from Carmen leaving me in an instant. First it was the phone calls, late at night while I was sleeping, having just got back from an 18 hour day of shooting, then the letters, then the following me around bit….The only time I had away from her was in the desert. I was so far away from it I didn’t even think about her or her shit or even that she would pull this shit with my folks here.

To be honest I enjoyed how much turmoil she was suffering because of me. She passed me along to one girlfriend too many and I was tired of being her little trick. I thought we parted ways like adults then she started this weirdo stuff. Yet secretly I loved the idea that heart of hers was breaking into a trillion pieces, that she couldn’t sleep or eat without me. Well now she knew I how I felt about her…..felt not feel…..Carmen…..Carmen made me feel like my old self…..I knew what I had to do……lie and lie well…….then handle Cheri….