Alice’s face was like if she were ok with the explanation what made Helena relax Did she “slept” with you?

            Al!!! Are you crazy or what? How am I supposed to do that answered Helena not very happy

            You perfectly know how you do it, it’s not your first time with a woman, and Bette’s very attractive, you’re hot,… so if you take it together…

            Helena understood Alice’s point of view, she would have thought the same it she wasn’t being involved and they were talking about other two women. It was a big truth that Bette was really sexy and she made burn everyone that looked at her, but after Dylan… Helena hadn’t looked any woman sexually; and Bette was not the type of woman that Helena was attracted to.

            Changing the subreal subject Alice. How are you? How are things going on with Lara? Helena knew things were a little akward between Lara and Alice since they had a little affair after Dana’s death. Somehow both felt like they were Dana’s widows. It had been strange the affair between Alice and the chef, it had been nothing about sexual needings or sexual attraction, it had been more like feeling close  to Dana after her death or even trying to keep her alive.

            We’re trying to work things out, or at least, we’re trying to be civil to one onother. It’s weird, we should have never, we… I… I  mean Lara is… We’re trying to find the way out and be civil. Not even Alice was able to find a reasonable explanation of  what happened between them.

            Alice,…

            I know Helena, I know, Lara is a good person, but every time I look at her I see Dana. I see Dana’s future gone, the things she would never experience. Do you know how it feels? Do you know hat’s that feeling in your heart that you feel you are dying because you heart’s broken?

            Helena looked directly to the opposite direction Alice was and the blonde realised what Helena was feeling. Helena knew that feeling perfectly and doubled. Dylan left her broken after the betrayal, and she felt her heart each day devastated for not living with her kids and everything she was losing of their lives. Sorry Helena, I didn’t mean… Helena nooded and looked Alice, Helena was about to start crying, it’s ok Al, I know how it feels, and I can tell you that is a feeling that will never disappear,  you’ll learn to live with it,… but it will always be there.