” Coffee’s ready!” She says coldly.

I walk to the kitchen and sit down on a chair, and I look at her directly in the eyes

” huhh” I can’t put two word together Like usual I can’t say something that will not be a joke or a stupidity!

Shane wants to talk first And I understand why She never had the chance to open up her heart and mind about this whole upside down situation.

“I’m listening. ” I say with a calm voice, but inside me I’m shaking like *****.

” Okay, here it goes I really don’t want to let you go now that you came back! (pause) I always had some strong feelings for you (pause) but I was to stupid to let you know! So, that’s why I didn’t react in a negative way when you told me how you felt for me (pause). It’s really hard for me right now You have to understand that I don’t want to be a ***** or selfish about this (pause) Since you came back, I didn’t have the time to tell you anything It’s like as if we were never been apart! (pause) We took things where we left them without asking questions or anything In fact, I didn’t even said to my actual girlfriend that I wanted to be with you instead of her! (pause) Then again I’m so confused right now You can’t even imagine!”

What? An actual girlfriend? Probably the girl I saw her with at Alice’s party OUCH! That’s hard to hear! I’m hurting My heart is crushed in bits and pieces But of course! What was I expecting? That she would’ve wait for me to return to her? I wasn’t even sure myself of coming back here! She met some people Obviously! How can I be such a fool!

She continues : ” I really want to be with someone I can trust! I really want a steady relationship and I want a nice future! You know? At first I was super exited to see you I really was But now that I can’t rely on you to be by my side I just don’t know anymore” She starts to cry.