I don’t even hear the screams start, I barely feel the anger bubble inside of me and before I know it my fingers are no longer tracing your name. They are balled into the tightest fists that I have ever made and I cannot fight the urge that I have to destroy your headstone. I’ve never hit anyone or anything before in my life. I’ve never been so angry, never felt so out of control before. My eyes faintly register the blood that is starting to smear the smooth marble in front of me, but I can’t stop and whatever pain I should feel in my hands is lost on me, because the only pain I can feel right now is coursing through my heart…

LARA

I can feel the blankness in my stare as I sit in the needlessly bright waiting area of the emergency room. I wish my mind would go as blank as my stare, but I can’t forget. I can’t shut out your angry screams or the images of you trying to beat Dana’s headstone to death. I rub my fingers over my eyes trying once again in vain to erase it from my mind. Truth be told from everything that I know about you I didn’t think that you had it in you to get so angry. I guess I still have a lot to learn. I’ve never felt so sad for anyone before tonight. I’ve never felt anyone else’s pain so clear. And that’s because I miss her too. A tear escapes quietly from the corner of my right eye, but I don’t even bother to brush it away. It has just occurred to me that I may be I can’t help you. I couldn’t even help Dana…

The airport had been busy, I didn’t expect it. Just like I didn’t expect Dana to come to the airport to collect me.  Even though we didn’t part on the best of terms, I can’t wait to see her. I can’t wait to wrap my arms around her, even if it is only for a second before she pushes me away again. I finally get my door unlocked and pull of my bags clumsily into the apartment and throw my keys on the table. I sit on the couch for a moment with my eyes closed thinking what a relief it is to be home and then I look around my empty apartment. I have been traveling for the last two days and I need to get some food and a shower before I do anything else. On my way to the bathroom I notice the light on my answering machine blinking furiously and I press the button as I continue down the hall to the bedroom to find anything that is clean and comfortable.