– And you Why won’t you tell Shane she is the only one you ever want to see on therapy, why don’t you tell her that you had the paramedics call her because she was the only thing in your mind that night, tell her why you didn’t wanted to go out and pick up girls with her anymore, explain to her the fact that tonight when your heard her voice behind you, you froze, and your eyes lighted up too. There are three little words to say what you’re feeling fro each other, if you could only get pass all that fear and say that face to face, you’d find that love is not such a bad thing, love’s good, it’s supposed to make you happy, not miserable, and if your fear is that the other person doesn’t love you, well I am telling you that is not the case, you two are in love with each other, and if you could stop being such babies you would do something about it. And with that being said Tina and I will get out for a walk, Sydney be sure not to get into bed too late ’cause we have therapy tomorrow really early.- After that Tina winked at me and they both went out of the house giggling, and I just want to crawl under the couch or something, I just want to disappear, Bette and Tina have a very particular way to force me to face things I don’t want to face, but I guess now it’s too late to get out of here running oh wait I can’t do that.

            – I’m sorry I wasn’t here for therapy.- she says still staring at the floor.

            – Don’t worry about it, I’ve been having enough support, all the girls have been there with me so it’s ok.- I answer also staring at the floor.

            – Yeah but I promised you I would be there and instead I ran away, maybe Bette’s right and I am immature.-

– Nah, I don’t think you’re immature, maybe I am but not you.-

– Hhmm, I don’t know about that, listen I have to help you get into bed, so you can rest for your therapy tomorrow, and if it’s ok with you I would like to be there too.-  Holy *****! This was the perfect situation to tell her, to at least get it all out of my chest and now I blew it, the opportunity is gone.

            – Sure, you can come with me.-

            – Cool, now let me get you into bed.- And so she does, she helps me and even stays with me for a little while, tracing that line she likes in my nose, by feeling that I feel safe, and fall asleep quite fast. I don’t know what’s gonna happen now, and quite frankly I don’t care, as long as she’s around that’s all I need.