“Yeah… yeah she is”

“I’m sure she’ll make up for not being here this weekend but she figured that I was the next best thing. We’ll look at a couple of venues, try and score some free cocktails from them”

“You think we’ll get free drinks?”

“Sure of it. The hotels are all fighting for your business so will do anything to get it” I believed her, she was in the movie business after all. I’m sure she had people falling in front of her to get a movie deal ” And New York is a great city to have your wedding”

“I thought you said it was a waste of money?”

“The cake and over extravagant dresses and nooks… yes but if it makes you and Carly happy. I’m all for that” 

PRESENT

“I don’t want you to see her again” she was angry, of course she was. I spent the night in the arms of her best friend “Will you do that?” she asked me, without deterring her eyes from my own “Jesus! I cannot believe you went there to see her”

Carly arrived home shorty after I did. I planned on going for a shower right away because I knew she would sense something but as soon as she came though those doors and hugged me I knew she’d figure it out because I think I actually hesitated in the embrace.

I felt the guilt burn in my chest as soon as I left Tina’s, which followed up with the sweats and anxiety.

I shouldn’t have been so damn honest and confessed everything, I should have told her a little white lie but it was still a lie never the less.

Just as I was about to answer she spoke again

“You can’t have it both ways Bette and you know I love you and have been 100% committed to you and this relationship, it was you who decided to fuck Tina” I cringe slightly, it was more than just a fuck, it was connecting with someone you have searched your whole life for, feeling that person enter your sole but Tina is like a tornado, you have no idea that to expect and from what I saw in the past… she could get bored of me pretty quickly.