He walks up to the door knocking so hard that I can feel the sharp pain in my hands. A loud banging noise coming from inside, the sound of muffled voices and I wish I had better clothes. That I had worn something to impress them, something that’ll make them want me.

“Carm no don’t…maybe if we don’t answer they’ll go away.” a soft whisper drifting from the open window, the voice strange, low filled with want, desire.

“Shane…it’s probably Jax we can’t not answer it. Just stop touching me,” her voice smooth like velvet almost what mom’s sounded like. “Hey Jax.”

The door swinging open revealing a lady in a red shirt that was twisted around her body like she put it on in a hurry. Her skin tanned, bronze in the white light that filled the room, her eyes so bright that they shine gold. Her raven hair falling in waves around her face, a wide smile on her lips.

“Hello Carmen, I know we’re a bit early but I just wanted to get here before traffic.” she holds the door open for him, pulling him into a quick hug. “Hi…I’m Carmen.”

She smiles nervously, playing with her hands she walks to the table. The shuffle of feet and the acrid smell of smoke washing in from the back of the house. The kitchen a deep yellow, clean and she starts to move things around on the counter.

“Where is Cutch?” he asks in a way that sounds so different, like he was talking to an old friend.

“What?” that low voice making me jump, the heavy feel of gravity pulling me closer to hell. “I was busy…”

Her hair messed up like someone ran there hands through it, it falls in her face hiding her eyes. Her skin tan, not any where close to the other one, I think her name is Carmen. The shock of black hair and she points to the other room, to the wisp of smoke that still linger in the air. She stops standing in the doorway, and I don’t know how to explain it.

I’ve seen her before, not really her but the way she stands, how she has her hands in her pockets. She moves her hair out of her eyes and I have never seen such green eyes. They glow with this emerald light that draws me in, they are cold steel not letting anyone in. she knows, she understands that you can never really let anyone in…they will only ever let you down.