Alice closed her cell. “*****”, Alice whispered.

Dana looked asking at Alice. Alice just shook her head.

She grabbed a blanked and laid it around Carmens shoulders to warm her up.

Tina came back into living room with towels and dry cloth for everyone. She sat in front of Carmen and looked to her.

“I have some dry cloth for you. You need to take off your wet cloth otherwise you’ll catch a cold”, Tina said calm and thoughtful.

Carmen stared at her like she would look right trough her.

Tina sighed and looked up to Dana and Alice. They just shrugged their shoulders and seemed to be as helpless as Tina.

“Why didnt you told me”, Carmen asked suddenly almost inaudible.

“We didnt know also. We just suspected something like this”, Tina explained.

Bette came into the living room with hot tea and sat next to Tina and laid an arm around her wife.

Carmen stood up with the cloth she got from Tina and went in silence to the bathroom.

“She doesn’t look good”, Bette mentioned.

“She is in shock”, Tina replied.

“Yeah, I think we all are in some ways”, Alice said. “We should have tried to talk to Shane in all this years. Then this hole drama wouldn’t have happened and she would be with us right now”, Alice went on with some guilt in her eyes.

“Al, you know that she always shut down if we tried to talk to her”, Dana said and hold Alice’s hand.

Tina and Bette nodded in silent agreement.

“Do you think Carmen can handle this?”, Bette asked.

“We just can hope so. You know its like she grew up in heaven and Shane in *****”, Tina said lost in her own memories.

“Carmen needs to understand. That’s the point”, Bette continued.

Alice took out her cell again and tried to call Shane. No reply.

It was still pouring with rain. She didnt know where she was. The lights from the cars passed by and she still kept walking. Her head ached and she felt dizzy. She just wished she could go home and take a warm shower. But she was scared. What if Carmen wasn’t there anymore? Why didnt she say anything?  This is just a bad dream. This all didnt happen.