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    Hindsight – Chapter 19

    Story written on January 25, 2007 by Jobadge.
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    Bette Porter: My heart was telling me so many things…

    Hindsight – Chapter 19

    Main Entry: hindsight
    Pronunciation: ‘hIn(d)-"sIt
    Function: noun

    Meaning:  understanding the nature of an event after it has happened

    "Hindsight is always better than foresight"

     

    I opened my eyes to her, she was telling me I needed to breath, did she even realise how difficult that was in this moment, I don’t even know what made me kiss her palm…, instinct…, familiarity…, habit even…, but she was more than a habit, she was my addiction…, just such a sweet addiction, and she had been my addiction for so many years, and as my addictive personality lead me…, controlled me, it was so very hard overcoming that addiction…, I had long come to realise she would always be in my blood…, in my soul…, in my heart…, she was an addiction I would never recover from…

     

     

    We stood looking at one another, her hand was now at her side, and I still I hadn’t answered her question of whether I was okay, or whether I should get the wound on my head checked out, I still felt it… I felt the imprint of her gentle fingertips still upon my cheek, the warmth, the softness, and her breath floating around me as she uttered those words or ‘need to breathe… need to breathe…’

     

     

    She had amusement in her eyes only moments ago, when she had uttered the words, but after… after my subconscious turned my head to place my lips on her palm, her eyes showed more…, so much more…, but that ‘more’, I’m not sure I was ready to hear it, I was almost afraid of what she would say…

     

     

    She spoke then, I watched her eyes as she quietly spoke, I saw the tears well as the words left her lips, “I… uh… I saw the pictures…”

     

     

    “Which pictures…?” I replied, not knowing which pictures she was referring to.

     

    “The ones in your car…”

     

    Fuck… she saw them, she looked at them, she probably held them and looked closely at the pictures that I found myself staring at each and every day… I dropped my head, looking at the floor at the disbelief I suddenly felt at how the day was turning into one massive emotional rollercoaster, those pictures were for me, for my eyes and my thoughts, they weren’t meant for sharing, those pictures were there for me to see the things I had momentarily taken for granted, the things that had walked out of my life seven weeks and five days ago, and to all intents and purposes, the things that I didn’t know when I would see again, those things… Tina and Angelica, they were my life, they were still my life, they were my past… and I wanted to continue living with the past because the future was empty without them…

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    3. I’m with curious!!these one pagers will be the death of me, I love the slow burn as much as the next girl but this one is turning into a blaze that no amount of aloe vera is going to help!!lol. Jo, we beg of you, end the suffering!!

    5. you are incredible! i absolutely adore your way of writing… it touches my heart every single time i read your story… especialy this one… keep up the marvelous work you’re doing… post soon :)

    8. I am so stressing here. Bette let Tina talk, we need to know what she wants to tell you before your talking makes her change what she was going to tell her. Remember she brought bags with her. Come on Please!!!!!

    10. omfg, this is just, just too excriciatingly painful…tell her Tina, tell her u’ve been a rat’s arse determined to make her feel as downright rotten as she made u feel over Candace BUT now u’ve had your revenge, it don’t taste so sweet when u see your one true love so completely dissassembled and dying….ffsake tell her…b4 I strangle the last breath out of U…LMAO…sorreeeee but !!!!!!!!PPS I must luv being tortured by u.

    11. “Are you happy Tina…?” … You know, I’m quite certain that Tina’s never actually asked herself that question since she left Bette. Well now would be a good time… an excellent time, in fact!… As I’m sure the answer would probably lead her to answer Bette’s other question, which in other terms means: Was it worth sacrifying your forever true love? In the name of what?… Normality? Security? Predictability?… Hindsight, Tina… now would be an excellent time to have a little taste of it…

    14. Hey. Its going to get tough from now. How does one answer that question? If Tina says that it was not worth it then it could end up with Bette getting even more upset and angry as it might indicate that Tina hadnt thought it through when she acted on her feelings but it was just an impulse and that too for nothing but more pain in return and at the cost of breaking up their family :( Now if Tina says yes then it would mean that she is happy with what she chose, that is her so called “new life”, which will still be painful for Bette to know as now it would confirm that Bette has truly lost her :( Tina is in a difficult situation and everything depends on how tactfully and sensitively she handles this situation while at the same time abiding by Truth. Thank you for this thought provoking story :) As u can tell I an very eager to know Tina’s response :) Please post soon :D

    15. Half way through I kept telling myself that I had to stop reading this, it was just to painful. You are a magnificant writer and of course, I couldn’t just stop reading. So I continued and painfully, panifully, enjoyed it very much. Yet, I don’t know how much more my poor heart can take. In the word’s of Mary J. Blige, which I happen to be listening to while reading this, “No More Drama.” Can you please, please write a “Situations” just to give us a break. I truly love your writing, but can you just throw in one non-painful story. Thanks!!!!

    16. Tina is gonna say “I don’t know” that’s the safe answer. Jo I was hoping for maybe a 10 pager…I was robbed of 9 pages…but damn if you didn’t pack alot of emotion into that one page…awesome as usual.

    18. I don’t think that Tina is happy or she would not be in the state that she is. I know that she cares about Bette but to touch her and feel her pain tells me that there is more going on inside of her. Bette has no clue that Tina has been reminding Angelica of her other mother or that she sings Bette’s favorite song that she sang to Angelica as a reminder of Bette. There is some buried feelings on both part. I hope that by Bette opening up some that Tina will allow her wall to crumble and work her way back to her true love.

    23. As usual, so sad and painful. I think Tina knows what she wants, and one of them has to do SOMETHING, and I don’t think it’s going to be Bette, so… Tina should just take her and kiss her and… make it better. Too easy of an answer? Yeah, I thought so too…

    24. Wow Jo… Powerfull words, REAL communication, you make that connection we see on the screen between them, between those hazel and chocolatbrown eyes, you make that connection palpable… Amazing as always, my friend ;)

    27. this was so painful and sad, because beside all the pain that Tina have been inflected on Bette it wasn’t worthy because Tina is not happy wiht her new life

    28. With every chapter of this..i try to see the positive…some tiny light at the end of the tunnel…its always been very sad..but i have to believe that Tina is there for a reason…other than Angelica…and i still believe that!…great writing..

    31. OK Jo, We need more. The slow burn is great but my heart can not take much more. Please just let Tina tell Bette she wants her back. Great Chapter Thank you PPS

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