Part 12-

We give up sleep friends and a normal life. We sacrifice all for that special moment. There are days that’s make the sacrifices seem worthwhile. 

And there are the days where everything feels like a sacrifice. 

“Carmen?”

“Um?”

“Are you ok?”

“Please don’t ask me that”

“Listen… go home take a bath go to sleep… you’ve been here for three days… if she wakes up I’ll call you ok?”

“I don’t have anybody to go home to…”

“… Carm”

“Yeah, yeah I know…. I think I do need a hot bath…but are you telling me to go home because I look like shit or because I SMELL like shit?” we laugh a little,

“Well I never thought I said this to you… but yeah you kind of look like crap”

I smile and get up from the couch next to Shane’s bed, which I’ve been sleeping for 3 days.

I don’t want to leave her… I don’t… she hasn’t woken up and… and I just don’t know what to think.

“Um… Alice, um she tends to move a lot, but Izzy say’s that’s good and it’s normal so don’t worry… Also if that yellow thing fills up, then call the nurse to change it, and, Ooh! and keep her under the covers because it can get a little cold at around 2pm as unusual as that sounds it is, it can sometimes get REALLY cold. Trust me I know…”

“Carmen!”

“Am I rambling?”

“A little bit…”

“Sorry”

“Don’t worry… Go, go, I’ll call you”

“Ok… Bye” I kiss Shane and go. I take a taxi to my rented apartment because my rented car has disappeared along with Nikky… wherever she is… I’ve tried calling her but… but she’s not answering.

I open the door to the apartment and go to the room to find a sleeping Nikky. I let her sleep while I go take a bath. I wait until the tub is filled with hot water. I get undressed and get in. I close my eyes and let the water calm every inch of my body.