I shrugged. "I am not faulting her for her perfection, I just want my Bella, I get tongue tied Rose, god if my heart could race it would, and it's making me crazy, I freeze around her and its just I … It was never hard with Bella, with this" I stopped my self from saying with this Bella and continued saying something more suitable. "With her now, I don't know?"

    Rose rolled her eyes now getting perturbed "Edward, you know" she groaned "You really need to stop talking about Bella as is she isn't Bella anymore, Had you spoke to me how you did her earlier I would have sent you out the window not across the room." Rose bit her lip and took a deep breath but couldn't get the guts to say what she was about to. Sadly it didn't stop her from thinking it, "You know Edward no vampire can ever be who you want. Not me, not Tanya or any other of us none of the vampires you known in nearly 100 year. Not even Bella, its disgraceful how you're acting to her."

     She shot my eyes with daggers "You must really hate what you have become, to be pushing away the women you love. One who foolishly risked and gave up everything for you, you wont even look her in the eyes, You make me so Mad Mr.Masen. " she shirked at me tossing the red bottle at my rock head. The bottle shattered covering me in polish.

     Oh did I ever wish I could tune out that silent rant, and the Mr.Masen, that's what Rose called me when she was acting like she didn't know me. I wanted to defend my self but, I truly had never looked at it that way, maybe that was it. I grimaced at the thought that I might hurt Bella over my own baggage.  "I don't even know what to say to that Rose, you have given me something to think about." wiped some red paint off my for head "Oh and very mature with the nail polish by the way." We both chuckled and I let my self out , "Thanks Rose, I am sorry about everything the past little while, it's good to have my Rose back."