It says: I didn’t cut. Spencer writes: Let me in. Ashden: I can’t yet. Spencer: Why not? Ashden: I’m busy. Spencer: Doing what? Ashden: Can’t say yet. Spencer: Did she hurt you? Is it bad? Ashden: Not really. Just wait.

She hands Kyla the note. They end up waiting outside the door for an hour. Then another note slides out. [Ashden: I got your email. I forgive you. To tell you the truth I almost liked it. I know you have needs I can’t fulfill. I want this to last, I really do. I know who I am right now and who I want to be; I just don’t know how to make it work. You’re right; thanks; both; I don’t want you to see how screwed up I am; yes; we can talk about those later. I know you do so, I’ll try. Open the door.]

Spencer finds him at his computer. He doesn’t turn around. “Babe, watch this…” He pulls up a video. It’s called “How to destroy your child (Starring Christine Davies)” Spencer looks on in horror, covering her eyes at parts. “Turn around. Lemme see what she did to you.” When it’s finally over. He has contusion marks around his neck and little cuts where her nails dug in. “What else?” He lifts his shirt, gorgeous unwanted breasts, four long gashes between them. “And…” he says, “some friction burns from when she…” He looks down. Spencer hugs him. It’s all she can do. She’s terrified that her fate could be much worse, considering what happened when Paula found out about Shane.
[They were in Spencer’s room watching VH1. “Damn, she’s so hot.” Shane drooled at the TV. “You’re such a pig.” Spencer had been thinking the same thing. “Did you see that guy just now? He was-“  “Hi girls.” Paula, who had been standing outside the door, suddenly appeared. “It’s time for you to go.” Her face holds up a sickeningly sweet smile. “Um… ok? I guess bye then, Spence.” Shane almost kisses her goodbye. But once she’s completely gone Paula says, “What in God’s name were you doing with that girl?” Her fake demeanor crumbles. “Watching music videos.” Spencer is bored. “I heard what she said. And then she tried to kiss you. I saw.”  “She wasn’t being literal. And she so wasn’t gonna kiss me, ew.” Spencer flat out lies. “The least you could do right now is tell the truth and this girl has you so corrupted that you can’t even do that simple thing.” Paula crosses to the bed. “Stand up and tell me the truth! What did that girl do to you?” Spencer stands in the face of Mother Superior, but does not speak. “That girl turned you into a dyke, didn’t she? I told you it was wrong. God will punish you but, now, in this life my job is to protect you from evil. Homosexuality is evil.” Spencer fights hysterical laughter. “You can’t turn someone gay, Mom. I don’t know what ‘god’ would do. Maybe ‘he’ makes people gay. If homosexuality is so ‘evil’ then I must be ‘Satan’s’ apprentice. ‘He’ whispers in my ear and tells me to fuck girls.” Spencer is instantly inflamed and infuriated by her mother’s empty distasteful accusations. Paula’s fists fly, as if on fire, to Spencer’s face, arms, stomach. “Don’t you ever talk like that in my house! I’ll baet the gay out of you if that’s what it takes.” She kicks Spencer to the floor and beats her as hard as she can. “I’d send you away but, your father would find out.” Spence takes it all without a sound. “I will not allow you to be this way.” Paula walks out. After five minutes Spencer finally breaks down into a puddle of tears and blood with some sprained bones & a mild concussion mixed in.]