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“Tina, we need to talk about this.” Carrie presses on.
“No, really we don’t. You don’t seem to understand why I have to go.” Tina replies. “My daughter comes first, no matter what Carrie. And right now, her other mom, is going through hell and they are all alone. My daughter is alone. That is where I have to be now. I don’t know how long I’ll be.” Tina says as she walks down the stairs. She passes several of the guests on her way out. She stops briefly and addresses the party.
“I’m sorry, but I have a family emergency in California, so I have to go. My flight leaves in 2 hours. It was nice seeing you all tonight. Thank you for being here.” Tina says and give them a quick smile before going outside. Carrie follows quickly outside and stops Tina going into the taxi.
“Tina, babe, wait. Don’t leave like this.” She pleads.
“I don’t have a choice Carrie. My daughter and ex-wife need me. Whether you like it or not, they are my family and I am going. I’ll call you later.” Tina replies before she gets into the taxi.
Tina makes it to the airport in good time. She didn’t have to stress. She checks in and goes through security and find her gate and takes a seat. She takes out her phone and checks her messages. 1 from Carrie has come through.
“Is this the end of us?” Carrie asks.
Tina sighs and closes her eyes briefly. She had to be honest, when Bette told her about her condition tonight, something changed for Tina. She felt pain in her gut. The possibility of not seeing Bette ever again, made her almost sick to the stomach. “Why am I feeling like this?” She asks herself. “I thought I was over her, my life with Carrie is good… But am I actually over Bette?” Tina keep asking herself.
She starts to remember the good times with Bette, all the special moments, the love that never really went away. Why did she feel lost? What made her feel lost? After their first separation, all the work they did to get back together. They were strong. Bette even started talking about her feelings openly. She’d never done that before. She even moved to New York for Tina. Bette would do anything for her, but still, that was not enough? Tina asks herself. Life with Carrie is simple, calm, they never argue, they just are. The real passion that was always there with Bette, is not there with Carrie, at least not the same amount. It’s good, but that last spark is missing. But since the divorce, all they went through, the hurt she caused Bette by leaving her… Could they really recover from that? Would Bette take her back after all that? She even stayed away from Kit’s funeral, she needed space as she had told Bette, but was that really it? Or would she have realized that she had made a mistake in leaving? God this is frustrating. Who do I love more? She asks herself.
Her flight is called and she boards the plane. The thoughts have to wait for later. Right before take-off she sends a text to Angie.
“Sweetie, I am on my way. Mama B called me, there is no way I’m not coming there to be by both your sides. I’ll see you in the morning. Love you Angie.” She writes and then she quickly replies Carries message with an honest “I don’t know.” And then turns off her phone.