“…You can’t become me Nikky, you are too good for that… you can’t imagine the price you pay for being unhappy and hating life”

“Yeah? Well I hope life takes Master Card. Stop, stop looking at me like that… look, I’m not becoming you Shane… I’m not stupid… and I’m not gonna kill myself. You’re weak, I’m not. You can’t function without Carmen… and, …I, I can. It’ll just take me a while, but I’ll live. So, just go.”

She’s right… I get up and start going away

“Shane…..” I look back “I mean it, don’t fucking hurt her cause I will have you killed…. I know people…” I smile

“Don’t worry I wont”

“Oh and uh… tell her she’ll have the divorce papers in a couple days.” I turn around and walk towards Jenny

“Take me home” Jenny looks at me then at Nikky

“Here” she gives me her keys

“What are you doing”

“Take my car… go for Carmen… I’ll stay here” then she walks towards Nikky’s table. I smile and turn around and run to the car

People say the only way to clear out the mind is to turn a new page…. well I’m getting a new fucking notebook

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Shane arrives at her ‘so-called’ home. She sees that the candles are all out. She walks in to the trailer and she sees Carmen waiting for her in bed, wearing one of her T-shirts.

“It’s about time you came home,”

“You know… I’ve had so many dreams of you saying just that… here and wearing just that. Well, maybe less, but I’m not complaining…” Carmen smiles and gets off bed and walks towards her.

“Well if this is a dream I can assure you… you are not going to wake up anytime soon.”

“You are so fucking sexy” Shane says smiling, pulling Carmen towards her and they are soon kissing. Shane lifts up her Latina and rests her on the kitchen counter. Carmen wraps her legs around Shane’s waist as their hands run all over one another, running over every detail, every curve. Carmen let’s out a moan as Shane starts to gently run her hand across her thighs, up her shirt and across her breast.