It looks comfy… very Shane-ish…

Big TV, her clothes… and a BIG bed. Excellent.

I smell her clothes and I can’t help but remember how it used to be… I take off my clothes and put on one of Shane’s big t-shirts. I actually can’t wait to see how my…our new life is going to be.

So… The only way to clear out the mind is to turn a new page? Well I can’t wait to start writing it.

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My driver as in Jenny takes me to where I was not too long ago. We go in and I see her… Nikky is in the same spot I left her. She looks bad… her eyes are pretty swollen.

“I’ll wait for you in the bar okay?” Jenny says and we both walk away. I get closer to the table we were at when neither of us were sure of anything… except that we loved her. I sit down. She looks at me surprised.

“What are you doing here?” she asked.

“I could ask the same”

“I’ll be here drinking remember? That’s what you said, right?” this is all so freaking sad.

 “I said that… you are better than me Nikky… so don’t”

“Apparently I’m not… she choose you” I don’t know what to say. She looks down to her beer “She said… she said that I wasn’t her true love… that she can be with me but she is never going to get over you… so I’m not  better… because I couldn’t make her forget”

“Look Nikky-”

“Don’t say a thing Shane… get the fuck out of here. Y’know what? You make me sick, because… right now, you should be making love to her. Not heregetting away… stop fucking leaving her alone Shane, stop it. You are not supposed to be here… what is your damage Shane really? I swear to God if you let her go this time, I will kill you. I have the money Shane I can make it happen. Thank you for caring for me and all, but right now… you are the last person I want to see. Get the fuck away from me, leave and go and be with Carmen. Kiss her…hold her… never let her go. Don’t fucking worry about me… I have nothing else in the world so what the fuck eh?”