I heard what I took as a disappointed sigh ”You can judge me all you want.. believe me, I’ve judged myself even harder”

”How did this happen? You were doing so well”

”You know when you’re a kid and your parents tell you not to do something because it’s dangerous but it’s so tempting?” In my case it was my nanny whatever and that was another reason why Helena got me more than most, she also came from a family that spent most of their time out of the house, being raised by nannies and the help.

”What did happen? I’m assuming you were smart and told her to go home”

”I did asked her to leave.. told her not to be there but she looked so deflected and I couldn’t turn her anyway, what kind of person would that make me?

Helena pulled my drink away. Bitch ”A decent one. Tina, you have been doing so well. We knew there might be a time when you saw them again and we also discussed how you would handle that”

”I know she loves Carly and I know I lost my chance”

”But you were never given a chance, Carly manipulated the situation”

I had told Helena way too much ”She had every right to and I let her blame me”

”She controlled you, Tina. You and Bette!”

”I told Bette to leave, god the look on her face when lied and told her that the night with her was just sex…” I looked onto the bartender, raising my hand for another 2 drinks ”Just have one drink with me” I pleaded

She glanced at me and took the drink ”Can I ask something that I have been putting off asking?”

”You have earned the right to ask me whatever you want” I winked

”You once told me that Carly had told her that you had done that before, what did she mean?”

I shook my head, still unable to believe that someone I loved could say such awful things about me “Sleeping with a girlfriend.. which I never had and I never would have but she loved to play with me like a doll and even if she didn’t realize she was doing it, she always could manipulate any situation so she came out on top”