"Do you believe there can be one person in this entire universe that was just made for you?". I sat there wondering if fate had been on my side the day I met Tina.

The therapist sat there her face puzzled as she herself felt inclined to truly think about the question asked not only as professionally but as a personal matter also.

Clearing her throat she responded, "Professionally I would have to say there are soul mates that can be friends but there are some that can also be lovers. So i think you can find more than one soul mate in your life time… But if I’m truly honest you just know… Its supposed fate… Destiny even when you find the other half than completes you."

"Tina nearly completes me if we’re both being honest here. It’s just I can’t let that 5% of doubt go.. At least not completely."

"But why Bette… You say she is learning to forgive you for your indisgression. Yet you can’t allow her into your heart completely. What is it your so afraid of? Where you be without Tina in your life?".
I waited a whole before replying truly thinking over all these incoherent thoughts.

"I wouldn’t be here without Tina in my life… I know that deep down. She saved me. She showed me what love could feel like. She turned my life around. As much as I know it… It’s like I’m scared I will lose her every second of everyday… I think about that. So I push her away when really I want nothing more than for her to hold me". The tears fell instantly coaxing my cheeks with the saltiness they brought. Taking a tissue from the box placed in front of me… I wept quietly allowing myself to feel vulnerable to my own emotions. I had been scared to feel this powerless since Tina and I began. My life before she came into I was fuelled with hatred and couldn’t truly understand someone could love you without wanting anything in return.

"I think we should leave this session where it is. We have covered alot today Bette you’ve finally admitted you are scared of becoming what your father was. I see there are much issues involving him. But I want you to think about Tina. You’re sacred of her leaving but yet she hasn’t left your life yet. Not even with what happened she’s still there for you. It’s whether or not you will allow her to get that close to you break through that tough exterior you’ve built over the years. You should try before our next session to talk with Tina. Explain your apprehensions and don’t dismiss them Bette, you need to address this."