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    Drowning – 25

    Story written on September 21, 2005 by lucia.
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    Tina contemplates – and Shane is sad but then she’s damn mad!!

    When a person spends so much of her life hiding from real emotional attachment, from hiding from anything more permanent than a few good nights, the idea of something longer term is definitely a fleeting image. So when Carmen came along in Shane’s life, she was thrown. But day-by-day she got more comfortable with it. But the only way for Shane to handle it and not keep waiting for the other shoe to drop, to not wait for Carmen to just up and leave like everyone else in her life had, was to take it day by day. She had to just keep it simple. There could be no long-term plans.

    Wow, the fights that went on over living together. Shane fought tooth and nail that it wasn’t needed, they spent all of their time together anyway. Carmen’s argument was the same; they spent all of their time together. Finally, logistics won out, and Shane couldn’t argue with that.

    Shane still missed Carmen everyday. But she took comfort in knowing that Carmen would find love and happiness somewhere else and would have the life that she deserved. Shane had ended it when Carmen started to bring up the idea of a more permanent relationship. Like, joint real estate, and a real commitment to each other and the possibility of a family. That was when Shane had to wake up from the dream she allowed herself to live for nearly five years.

    Shane was able to handle the idea of a relationship, maybe the real estate thing, though a 30-year commitment did scare her, but a family? That was not going to happen. A family? Shane truly believed that she was just too damaged by life to ever be able to be a good parent and no child deserved the net effects of what her life caused. So she ended things with Carmen. She knew that Carmen would never do it on her own. So she took the matter into her own hands and left.

    When she let herself truly think about it, she knew she left out of pure fear. She was so scared that some dreamlike world was going to be created where she had a house and wife and kids and then she would wake up. And the idea of waking up from that wasn’t something she could survive.

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    1. It was a lot of reading, but I’m totally enjoying it!! Love the way you wrote Tina and Shane and shed some light on their feelings and emotions on the different situations. Excited to see where you’re going to take the stalker plot…especially with Alice leaving and Dana staying behind. Can’t wait for the next post

    5. Thanks for the update. I have nothing but positive vibes from your story…yeah,I realize that doesn’t make exact sense…whatever *rolls eyes* Thanks again

    8. i really loved the way you described tina’s feelings. great insight when you wrote this: “She could be a wonderfully caring person, but it was when needed, not just because” that is so damn right. thanks.

    10. Oh how my heart raced when I saw that you posted lol. The insights into Shane was great, her fears and reason were understandable. The stalker plot got me on the edge, what’s gonna happen now that Alice is leaving? Pls post soon

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