”You’ll say, don’t fear your dreams, it’s easier than it seems
You’ll say you’d never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a promise and you can’t afford to lie
You’ll never live the life that I live
I’ll never live the life that wakes me in the night
You’ll never hear the message I give
You’ll say it looks as though I might give up this fight”*

End Flashback

“Shane… Shane, wait…”.
Carmen’s voice low. Her hair still soaking wet.
She has a towel around her breast and is leaning against the doorframe.
Shane is quickly putting on her jeans. She grabs her t-shirt from the floor.
“Have I offended you in some ways?”, Carmen asks, staring at her naked back.
Shane turns around and her eyes are full of tears.
“No…”, she croaks, sniffing.
“No, you didn’t. It’s just that… I had a feeling you were trying to fuck me, and not to make love to me…”.
Carmen bites her bottom lip, lowering her head.
She doesn’t reply.
Shane buckles her belt.
“Look… What you told me, what’s happened to you…”, she shakes her head. “…I can’t even explain how the whole thing makes me feel. I don’t know any words to express how I am feeling…”.
She rubs her eyes.
“…But you asked me to promise I would say nothing, I would add nothing, and I would ask nothing. And… I don’t want to disappoint you”.
“Okay. Thank you”. Carmen’s voice is tiny as a whisper.
“Anyway, I still need to ask you something”, Shane adds, swallowing.
Carmen just looks at her, her arms folded. Her body language clearly says that she is taking up a defensive position.
“…I just wanna know if what we are doing means something, for you… Or if you’re just using me to –“.
Carmen’s hand raises immediately, her palm white in the dim light.
“Stop it. How can you ask me that?”. Her voice is full of disappointment.
Shane’s eyes only express a choking sadness.
“Wouldn’t you, if you were me?”.

”Tu, affogando per respirare
Imparando anche a sanguinare
Nel giorno che sfugge
Il tempo reale sei tu
Tu a difendermi a farmi male
Sezionare la notte e il cuore
Per sentirmi vivo
In tutti i miei sbagli”
[“You, drowning to breathe
Learning to bleed
In this fleeting day
Only you are the real time
You, defending and hurting me
Sectioning my heart and the night
To make me feel alive
In all of my mistakes”]