Previously

Shane turned off the TV and took a seat on the coffee table, back turned to everyone, her head down as the tears she had been trying to stop, started to fall… her body was shaking .. she was desperately trying to brace herself for the rejection she believed was about to come… and the silence filling the room was causing her to hyperventilate… her brain was over working itself with memories of her life, the good, the bad and the ugly but one thing hurt the most…… how alone she felt in that second…..

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Mark watched on from the corner of the room as all the women just sat there unable to find any words to voice their thoughts and he could tell that any questions they had formed during the playing of the videos were now lost in the silence surrounding them… All of them silent, including Alice for a change… but what sparked Marks interest the most was they didn’t look at all turned off by any of this, just shocked that Shane would feel the need to hide it from them……

As Mark continued to observe everyone in the room, his eyes shifted to Shane who was now sitting with her legs pulled up to her chest and it appear she was trying to disappear…. Mark himself knew what was going on in her head and what everyone else in the room were desperately trying to wrap the head around and knowing he himself was not the one who needed to break the now uncomfortable silence, he just stood there watching, and observing….

From the beginning his documentary was about trying to understand the lesbian community and show his viewers ever aspect of that life…….. but In this silence he realized their were no differences, no reasons to judge these women, they were only human and at this exact moment he was given privilege to view their lives in one of it most revealing, raw, and open moments………..

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As Mark stood there observing, Carmen’s mind was doing a double take on everything she had witnessed since the day she some how fell into this close nit family of friends… from the very first time she met Shane at the studio to the time she saw her at Milk, where Shane completely blew her off, to the night she met Jenny in her supa luva costume and then proceeded to keep Shane in her room as long as possible by playing ‘Too Hot’ and winning control over the room for a few hours… then to her first date with jenny and all the random girls she was sure Shane was bringing home to fuck…..