only to be left with the raw truth that what she believed was wrong, that she had been with jenny all this time trying get Shane’s attention when she already had it, to find out that in doing so she not only hurt jenny but maybe even hurt Shane and to hear for the first time that Shane only ever wanted her, but was too scared of rejection and lose to except those feeling for what they were… She was at a loss for word… Carmen honestly didn’t care about what Shane had admitted to doing, she care yes but it didn’t change the truth… that she was in love with Shane or the fact that even if Shane never opened up to her, she would still be there for Shane as a friend…

All of this running thru her mind at lightning speed only made it harder for her to think rationally and voice her opinion … so there she sat on the edge of the couch silent, willing herself to speak but coming up with nothing that sounded right……….

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Like Carmen the rest of the women in the room where stock hold in their movements, not knowing what to say or how to voice even the simplest things… from Bette’s ‘ Shane we love you’ to Alice’s ‘Yoda please …..like i didn’t know’ .. they just remain silent over come with the fear that saying the wrong thing might only make things worse in the end… some in the room regretted the way they had gone about this whole situation, while others where truly glad they finally knew the truth, the only regret was it took this long to find out about it..

Their minds were all racing from different times in their life when they could sense something was wrong with Shane, where she’d become distant, to times when she would disappear for a few days and then be back with a very vague excuse for her whereabouts…. to the plethora of times when Shane would come out of nowhere and be the one they could cling to when times got ruff from Bette’s affair, to going with Tina to get inseminated a few months after the first baby died… to helping Alice in her many failed attempts at finding love by giving her advice and ultimately keeping Alice’s head held high and in place while Dana was having trouble getting rid of Tonya….. then to jenny and her insecurities that Shane was inadvertently replacing with confidence.. yes setting her up with Carmen wasn’t a great idea but jenny didn’t mind, in a way the relationship helped her to crack out of her shell a little more and for that she was grateful…..