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IS THIS LOVE

Chapter 52

Tina lifted herself up so she was resting on her arm and looked at the digital clock at Bette’s side of the bed. It was 5:15am and she’d been awake for about 20 minutes. There was so much going round in her head about her mom and everything that had happened. She would never admit it but she was genuinely fearful of losing Bette over what was happening. Tina had known almost from the very start of their relationship that Bette liked to play the chivalrous role – she opened doors and treated Tina like a princess. After all the hurt and abuse she had endured from her exes it was a really nice change for her and if it made Bette happy there was no harm in it. They both enjoyed their “roles “ and were comfortable in how things were developing – they really did have a future. Not just a short term future but a one that would last for years – one where they set down roots together. That was Tina’s dream and with Bette she could see the same dreams and desires for their relationship. The obstacle in their way at the present time was her mother – Tina sighed and threw herself onto her back in the hope that she would fall asleep again.
“You okay ?” Bette’s voice broke the silence after a few minutes.
“Did my squirming wake you up ?”
“No “ Bette rolled over and looked at the blonde “It was the sigh that people crossing the Brooklyn bridge could hear that did it “
Tina smiled “ Sorry “
“Its okay – I was just considering going to the bathroom – you made my mind up “
Bette threw the duvet back and got up. Tina watched her as she walked round the bed to reach the door. God what a just sensationally hot body – curves in the right places and as for her ass – just the greatest. Bette left the bedroom and Tina sat up so she could rearrange her pillows. She lay back and stared at the ceiling with lots of thoughts going around her mind – would her mom back down if they gave her enough time ? Would she really carry out her threat to cut her mom out of her life if she ruined things ?
Tina was so lost in thought that she didn’t notice that Bette had come back into the room carrying two glasses of juice
“Thirsty ?”
“Yeah – thanks “ Tina sat up and sipped the liquid -it was wonderfully cold “That’s great – thank you “
“Its okay – drinking too much always gives me a thirst “
Bette got back into bed and drained her juice in one and lay back looking at Tina
“I guess we were both pretty up tight yesterday “
Tina nodded “No one winds me up like my mom “
“Not even Jane ?”
Tina shook her head “That fucking ass hole ? – well yeah – she was supremely good at upsetting me.”
“I don’t mind you talking about her “
“You might regret that but no – I don’t think there is much point in going over the past. This has to be about you and I and the future “ Tina paused “For one you don’t blame me for everything like she did “
“And you blamed you ?” Bette inquired
“She blamed me “ Tina said lightly
“You still blame yourself for things that go wrong. I don’t blame you for the way your mom has been. Really babe -its not your fault that she’s doing what she is doing. You have to cut yourself some slack “
Tina sipped her juice and looked at Bette
“I do -I know I do “
“So – stop it – I’m not going to leave you over this – if we succeed or fail we do it on our own terms because we can’t get on or because I strangle you because of how untidy you are” Bette smiled “Not because of your interfering mom”
Tina smiled “Fucking hell Porter I love you so much “
Bette grinned “You are just saying that because its only half five in the morning “
Tina shook her head “No – what I feel for you is a 24/7 thing”
Bette smiled “I think we are both being too up tight about the old trout – lets see what she’s going to do before we both go into orbit eh ?”
Tina nodded – Bette lent forward and kissed Tina on the lips. The kiss lingered and slowly slipped into something more passionate – Bette ended the kiss and looked at the blonde.
“Your mom is not going to sabotage us – you know why ?”
“Because its immoral – though she’s a lawyer so she’s not real big on scruples “
Bette smiled “Because of my mom and dad “
Tina raised an eyebrow “ Say again ?”
“Your mom and my parents have only just met up again – our mom’s are very close. I think my mom’s approval will carry a lot of weight with your mom “
“Just like that ?”
“Neither of us have been thinking clearly. We do need to chill and just see what’s going to happen. We have both forgotten something very important “
“What’s that ?”
“That I can be utterly fucking charming when I want to be “
Tina laughed “I don’t want my mother getting any ideas about you “
“What if the idea was that you and I are made for one another ?”
Tina grinned and put her glass down on the bedside table behind her
“Now that is an idea that I can work with “
Bette smiled “It is early “
“It is “
“The alarm isn’t due to go off for over two hours “
“I know “
Tina pushed Bette backwards and climbed on top of her so they could get comfortable for a long kissing session. After a few minutes of slow and gentle kissing Tina lent back and looked down at Bette. Bette was obviously aroused
“You okay ?”
“Dumb ass question Tina “
“I know – I just worry “
“Well try quit worrying and keep doing what you were doing because it was pretty good “
Tina brushed her hair back and kissed Bette on the lips again
“Touch me “
“Where “
“Everywhere “ Bette replied smiling “I want you so bad – I’m desperate for you Ti “
Tina smiled – she always wanted to please Bette and after everything she had endured just to be with her it was the least she could do for the brunette. Tina began kissing Bette again and moved her hand down so she could cup Bette’s breast in her hand and slowly and with great care she started to stroke and caress it. Bette gasped as the kissing became more intense and Tina’s gentle movements started to arouse her even more.
Glancing up Tina saw the empty glass with the slowly melting ice cubes. Remembering something that she’d never done for Bette – mainly because Jane had hated it so it had kind of dropped off her list of “rewards “ for her woman. She scooped an ice cube out and while she was still kissing Bette she started to rub it around Bette’s nipple
“Ohh God “ Bette’s eyes flew open
“Just chill “ Tina said “ Trust me “
Bette caught her breath and smiled “It was a shock “
“A good shock or a bad one ?”
“Keep going – I’ll get back to you “
“Okay “
Tina ran the ice cube around Bette’s nipple until the cube was too small to hold and it just melted into her fingers. She scooped a second ice cube out and began the same process on Bette’s other breast – Bette’s expression was telling her that this was a big success. Tina enjoyed watching the ice cube melting on Bette’s warm skin. The way Bette’s nipple grew as the ice touched her was driving Tina even more crazy with desire than she usually got when she was feasting on Bette’s body.
“I love you “ Tina said when the second ice cube had vanished and she licked the cold droplets up from Bette’s firm breast.
“You too “ Bette gasped.
“Lets see how many more of these ice cubes we have “ Tina muttered picking up the glass and fishing out another cube. By the time she was down between Bette’s thighs and watching as the final ice cube melted into her lover’s belly button they were both hot and it was obvious that Bette was pretty close to the edge by the way she was moaning and how she was pressing her core into Tina’s thigh.
“Ti – please- babe “
“Its okay – ssshh – just leave it to Tina “
Bette nodded – her trust in Tina was total and that was a real turn on for her. Tina moved lower so she could start really taking care of the woman she loved. Bette moved her legs wider and waited for what she knew was going to be a fantastic experience. Tina was just the best lover she had been with in years and sex was hot.
Tina began by licking Bette up and down with long, lazy movements of her tongue. She could taste Bette’s juices and was relishing covering her tongue with Bette’s taste. She let her tongue linger around Bette’s entrance – licking at the most sensitive part and even pushing her tongue in a little way – the way Bette moaned made Tina smile – not quiet yet babe – not yet – a little more foreplay before I am ready to slip inside that place.
Tina placed a kiss on Bette’s clit – letting her lips linger – the moan was a reward and an encouragement. Bette’s fingers slipped through Tina’s hair and held on her curls. Tina concentrated all her attentions on Bette’s clit – licking, kissing and keeping a firm pressure on the nub. Bette was bucking her hips up and down as Tina started to really drive her crazy. As Bette’s groans got louder Tina slipped her finger deep inside Bette and started to ease it back and forward.
Bette had totally given in to Tina – this was not just about the physical – there was so much more involved as far as Bette was concerned. Every time Bette surrendered like she was now – her soul gave more of itself to the blonde.
“Lift your legs up for me “ Tina said pausing in their lovemaking. Bette obeyed and felt Tina enter her with a second finger as she wrapped her legs around Tina. She was deep inside Bette now and she could feel her whole body losing control as her orgasm began to sweep towards its inevitable release. Tina was pumping her fingers in and out of Bette as the brunette finally allowed her body to fall over the precipice.
Bette cried out and held on tight as her whole body capitulated 100% to Tina’s skilled and loving fingers. Tina stopped pumping as Bette’s orgasm shook both women’s bodies.
“Ohh God – ohh Tina – babe – oh fuck “
Tina used her free hand to touch Bette’s face and kiss her on the mouth. She knew she tasted totally of Bette and that was always a hot thing for both of them. After a few minutes Bette opened her eyes
“Wow – that was amazing “
Tina nodded “It was impressive “
Tina slipped her fingers from inside Bette and made a slow and dramatic show of licking them free of all the juices. Bette growled
“Fuck me “
“That’s what I did “
“You are the best “ Bette said shaking her head and rubbing Tina’s face “You are a amazing lover – so carefree and wild “
“You have to know that you are pretty smoking hot too “
“I hope I satisfy you too babe “
“Of course you do “
It surprised Tina that Bette did have insecurities about what she was like as a lover. These were insecurities that Tina didn’t have about her own performance or that of Bette’s. The more they got to know one another the better and more fulfilling sex was becoming. Tina climbed off Bette and drained the last of her juice – pity the ice cubes had all gone. She climbed over Bette until she was sitting behind her with their legs stretched out together.
“Lie back babe “
Bette sighed and did so. Tina took a few strands of Bette’s wavy hair and started to play with it
“Why wouldn’t you make me happy ?”
“Its just that “ Bette trailed off
“Yeah “
“I am not used to being in a relationship and I do worry “
“That you don’t make me sexually happy ?” Tina was just checking to make sure she had this right – after all it was just after 6am
Bette sighed “I am used to satisfying a woman a few times – you know – mutual stimulation. I am less used to – well what we do “
“Such as what I just did and 69 and all that stuff ?”
Bette sighed “I didn’t do relationships – I desperately wanted to but “
Tina pulled Bette down so she was lying in Tina’s lap
“Now listen to me Porter – you are not going to get all freaky on me because this is the first serious relationship that you have been in for a while. It doesn’t matter to me – I don’t care about what you did and didn’t do in the past. This is here and now Bette and you have said this yourself – you and I have one hell of a great shot at making it work. We could have a future here . I don’t much give a flying fuck what you did or didn’t do to the models and all those skinny rakes you fucked in the past. What matters to me here and now is that in my book you are an amazing lover with stamina and passion and tenderness and a great imagination. We haven’t talked much about sex because we have been too busy fucking one another senseless. Its going to change – we are going to just fall asleep in one another’s arms like we did like night. That’s normal and that’s what we both need “
Bette looked up at Tina – Tina smiled – the brunette didn’t often so such a vulnerable side to her personality and when she did Tina was careful not to scare her.
“My mom – the other one – the one who would have just adored you – she used to tell me that I couldn’t make a woman love me – that I couldn’t stop a woman cheating on me or breaking my heart because it was what happened when you looked for a partner. But she told me “ Tina swallowed “She told me on the day that she died that there was someone out there for me – and that she would come into my life when I least expected it and she would sweep me off my feet and she would take care of me”
Tina had never spoken about this to anyone before – she certainly had never shared it with her other mom. But now – now she had to tell Bette this – to show her that they were just meant to be
“She promised me “ Tears were forming in Tina’s eyes and she couldn’t stop them
“I have tried really hard not to put all of this on you but you just seem to fit what my mom told me. If I told my mom – the other one she would laugh at me and point out how many painkillers my mom was on before she died. I don’t care – I just know that my mom is watching over me and maybe its fanciful and maybe its insane and it certainly isn’t logical but its been something that I have kept with me – you and I Bette – we are just meant to be”
Tina desperately hoped that Bette wasn’t going to be freaked by this. She watched as Bette sat up and moved round so she was facing Tina. For several minutes Bette didn’t speak. Finally she took hold of Tina’s hand and held it close to her breast. When she looked at Tina there were tears in her eyes as well
“So why are we so worried about your mom “
Tina laughed “I don’t know “
Bette touched Tina’s face and kissed her on the lips
“You and I have to stop worrying so much about the past and about our folks. What we do matters and fuck Tina – you rock my world – I love you “
“I love you too babe “