Gratified to hear that Bette had at least been thinking about her actions, Tina sat silently, trying to process Bettes answer. Her own time reflecting had forced her to be honest with herself and realize that she had contributed to the cracks in their relationship that had allowed (forced?) Bette to deal the breaking blow. Not that Bette could ever be excused for cheating! But maybe there weremitigating circumstances.

Do you love me? Tina spoke the words so softly, Bette wasnt sure she hadnt imagined them. She moved to kneel in front of Tina, as if begging for her life. Which she was.

With every iota of sincerity she could muster, Bette softly began to speak. Tina, I love you more than life itself. I wish I had never given you reason to doubt that, because you deserve better. Our marriage deserves better. But, Tina, its the most honest truth I know, my love for you. Bette sat back on her heals and continued reflectively. I love the fact of us. Or what we werebefore. That was the only reality I ever wanted to know, to live.

Tina turned Bettes statements over in her mind, trying to really listen to what her wife was saying. She knew that Bette deserved to be screamed at, to be hurt as much as she had hurt Tina. But she couldnt do it. As much pain as she was in, she just couldnt continue the cycle of betrayal. And that is exactly what it would be, a betrayal of herself and every dream she ever had for them as a couple.

Tina stood up and extended her hand to Bette. Can we take a walk?

Bette looked up in surprise. Sure. But, uh, could you excuse me for a few minutes first? she asked with an embarrassed smile.

Tina chuckled in sympathy and handed Bette her car keys. I have tissue in my car.

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I need to know what really happened, Bette. I dont want to know, but I need to know. So tell me what the ***** happened. Tina started walking faster, trying to control her anger. Bette had to lengthen her stride to keep up.

Tina, wait up. Ill tell you, but you have to slow down. Tina! With that, Bette grabbed Tinas hand and pulled her to a halt.