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    Missing. 7

     

     

    I need this to stop. I need this to stop. I need this to stop.

     

     

    It flashes me every person I have ever known or had a drink with. They are all here. In my private hell. This use to be my life? This is what I missed so much? One of those hummer limo’s pulls up and it’s blaring   “Fuck a dollar and a dream”….that Biggie song. Guns are drawn and bullets fly killing them all one by one. I am the only one standing and blood runs thick like lava…… What the fuck….Carmen….please please…get me the fuck out of here…..before I know what the hell is going I am on a bike…… Carmen riding like a bat out of hell and she is yelling at me about how she doesn’t give a fuck about her reputation anymore…

     

     

     

    “Shane….you are unusual. I want you to give me love so that I can kill………..love me…..love me…..” Carmen says to me as she lies in a pool of her own blood.

     

     

     

    “Stop. I mean it stop it right now. I want to talk. I want out of here…..its all happening to fast I can’t keep up. Please stop it. Please. Ok I am sorry. I thought I wanted this. I thought I could try to make sense of this. I am sorry. I just want to go back home to my girl and my kid.”

     

     

     

    “You’re unusual?’

     

     

    “Not I am not.”

     

     

    “Love me…..”

      

     

    “I do love you.”

     

     

    “You’re unusual…”

     

     

    “No I just want to go home. This was a bad idea. Please….”    

     

     

     

    “I can’t hear you……”

     

     

    “It’s a crime….I am sorry. I don’t care about what might have been. It doesn’t matter, that’s not me….it’s not me.”

     

     

     

    The night line guy. He stops it somehow. All the weirdness. It’s like someone hit pause. Its him and me and we are having an interview with some sort of studio audience. Except the crowd isn’t a crowd its just me in a hospital bed and Carmen sleeping in a chair next to me.

     

      

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    1. look you are the greatest writer there is ok !!! you are my fucking inspiration for real!!! i hope you get better . For the ending this story yea im very sad cause this is my reason to keep reading fanfic for real.. i do read but this just gets me pumping haha i loved this story and will always be my fav . still lovin it the updates are great. i dont think you sude stop writing cause your great i have told you before your the fucking best. Dont stop!! I love your other stories to dont get me wrong all of them are fucking tastic and i for sure will be reading enything you write. Maybe your right i mean i this stpry keeps giong and someday has to stop but let me tell you the intencity never stopped it keot getting better and better. I’ved cried laughed with this storie and man i think im gonna start reading it again!!! ok im gonna stop now. i hope you get better good luck with your muisc but dont stop writing!!! again you’re the best

    2. I really don’t even know what to say…I’m in shock and probably denial as well…the thought of not being able to log on and read a new chapter of…anything by New Dawn Fades is, well…depressing. I don’t normally post here (why, I don’t really know) but I nearly fell off my chair when I read that you may be gone for good. This story arc has been one of the best things I’ve ever read…and I ‘m not just talking fanfics…I mean one of the best of EVERYTHING I’ve ever read. While I knew this arc had to end at some point (and I suppose if I’m honest with myself I’ve felt it coming), but you’ve also written so many other great stories (Now I’m Nothing, Night Returning, La Mer, Grey Hotel) that I guess I just figured I would still be able to get my NDF fix. So basically what I’m trying to say is…you are an amazingly talented writer and I will continue to thoroughly enjoy reading your work for as long as you afford me the privilege. I really hope you feel better…and thank you!

    3. I hope you deciding to disappear for good is the fatique & delirium talking from you being sick. Seriously though I’m sure you need the mental rest from the wonderful stories that you’ve given us, so I ain’t mad at ya. Hope the muse hits you again. Will it be too optimistic of me too think we’ll get more of ‘Grey Hotel’. It’s been amazing reading your AU stories about my favorite couple from the L Word, at least you still have a few more updates to go. Thanx

    4. You’ll be gone? You’ll be missed if you go. Really. And about the whole thing of topping yourself, every time you finish a part to this storyline, I think the same thing. I think that there’s no way it can get any better. No way. But then you write something like Scorpio Rising, then you write A means to an End, then you write Missing, and I’m proven wrong every time. But if you feel that this epic is coming to a close, then you’d be right to have it come to its natural end instead of dragging it along and having the story suffer. Just know that if you find new inspiration, you’ll have *much* support, and your other stories will get much support as well. Oh, almost forgot to mention: I loved the update (and knowing that it’s one of the last updates, I appreciate it even more).

    5. Well, that gives new meaning to the terms “shock therapy” ! Looking forward to the next chapters… For as long as they keep coming. Thank you for this.

    6. To say that you will be missed if this is the end of the line would be a severe understatement! Your writing is always fresh and unpredictible and this sage has been a joy to read. I hope that you continue to feel better and find new inspirations.

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