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A provocation.
My mother told me that it was my life of sin. She told me… her daughter that my love for Helena is what did this to me. Who is Helena when I miss Shane? And that look on all their faces. That look that said to me everything I needed to know. They didn’t recognize me anymore than I did them. So why did I let her words infect me so much? Why did I let that little glimpse of the might have’s and could have been’s… why did I let it sink into my brain?
Who am I?
What am I?
I am on my own and l know it now.
My life has become that sad old Elvis song. You know the one where he gives that speech in the middle. The song about missing the brighter sunny days. Oh yeah my memory of the only thing I ever remembered….yes empty and my kid hates me because his real mom isn’t here. It is my fault I told Shane to leave? I told her I was setting her free. It was not my intention to feel like broken pieces of glass. It was not my intention to break my son’s heart…to break Shane’s heart. It was not my intention to feel like I made another mistake. And this mistake felt so familiar.
It wasn’t the first time this body left Shane alone to deal with this world that has no place for her….. this world that you know for a fact she detests…..this world that is cracked and flawed…I don’t even think the way I should. I think the way she would. I think the way she does.
My words they are bitter they lack sweetness. I feel like they are coming from her mouth. The old me whose feelings I channel surf through on a daily basis. Do I miss Shane? Or does she miss Shane? And by she I mean me. The wanton feral thing that Shane consumed and remade and broke.
I definitely don’t sound like me. Is too late to say that I made a mistake? Is my heart filled with pain…should I try to call that number again….am I lonesome tonight?
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*kneels down and bows*You are pure perfection.
That story rocks my world. Thank you.
I am so glad that this continues, this one has me even more intrigued with them being apart.
I didn’t find Marco’s behavior funny at all (sorry 2BMe). Call me old school, but I believe that a child should have respect for his/her parent no matter how pissed off they are (there are very few exceptions to that rule, none of which are even CLOSE to being embodied by Marco and Carmen). It pisses me off when kids and teenagers now-a-days mouth off to their parents as if they were equals. Guess what? They’re not! Never will be. And for a four-year-old to speak like that at all is disgusting. Sorry about the rant, NDF. It’s just that your stories always evoke strong emotion. I get all rile up because I get so into it (so, really, it’s your fault. you should be apologizing to me. :P kidding). You always do a fantastic job at putting the audience right there with Carmen, Marco, and Shane, and this update is no exception. I can’t wait to see what’s in store. Awesome, awesome job.
fuck yea shes back!!!!!!!!! i think she need 2 find like a girl that remind her of carmen then carmen would see her and BAMb!! more drama haha lol ok dont pay me any atention… i love thissssss im likeeee….. like super happy right now you make me a happy person all my friends and familly thanyou very much for that lol
YES! Another sequel. Marco being pissed & cursing Carmen out – too funny! I hope Carmen rises to the challenge & goes after Shane.
Your stories are beyond amazing. I love the way you write. Please get Carmen and Shane back together! I really want to have Carmen track Shane down.
So glad this saga will continue although I knew it would! It’s time for Carmen to go after Shane because Shane is right she gave everything to Carmen! Anyway just my opinion, can’t wait to read more. If I have’nt said it before; your writing is simply captivating.