To my regret I saw her ears perk up at the mention of her beloved’s award winning film.

“It might work. Give me a moment”

I almost cried watching her race out of bed to get her most prized soundtrack. I prayed she wouldn’t make me sing along.

Kate Winslet 2 – Bette Porter nil.

“Fuck”

Almost as quickly as she left Tina returned. She stood at the door empty handed and stared at me with an odd expression on her face.

“Please tell me this is not about my response to Alice’s silly question earlier”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about”I denied cause god knows I wasn’t about to tell her I was feeling insecure because of a whimsical crush she had on a celebrity. Only a fool would do that.

“You are jealous of Kate Winslet.” She pronounced each word with a shake of her head. “That’s ridiculous”

“You said if she came knocking on your door, you’d throw her on the couch and make her see stars.” I said, feeling every bit the fool.

“Bette, this is insane.” Tina was trying to hold back giggles and I was near tears.

“What if I was sitting on the couch, would you push me off before you made her see stars? What am I talking about, you probably wouldn’t even notice me on the couch not with Kate in the fucking room.”

Tina was now on the bed lying on her back, laughing a hearty laugh. She didn’t seem to appreciate my obvious distress.

“Do you think about Kate when you please yourself while I’m away.”

More fitful laughter followed my question.

With Tina carrying on the way she was there really didn’t seem to be much point in continuing our discussion. “Good night” I pulled the covers over my body and tried to ignore the tight feeling in my chest. It was so unlike me to feel this insecure. Deep down I knew it was a silly crush but emotions have a way of escalating and now my heart was semi convinced Tina would drop us if a certain Oscar winner came calling.

“I love you moron.” Tina whispered in my ear as she curled around me. I hadn’t noticed that her laughter had subsided or that she’d managed to get under the covers quietly.

“I love you Bette Porter”

I believed her, how could I not when the sound of her voice filled me with such warmth.

“I love you Bette” she trailed a string of kisses along my neck and I felt a blissful tingle all over.

“Would you like to make love” she teased, her fingers already working on my not so sheer and sexy flannel pajamas.

———-

A long while later after making me see stars Tina pulled the covers over us and asked “So who is your celebrity crush?”

“I desire no one but you. I’ll always come home to you. I think of no one but you when I please myself. I love you.” I answered without missing a beat. I sounded like a practiced zombie but Tina was ape shit jealous and I didn’t want to spark her off.

“That’s wonderful but who is your celebrity fantasy crush?” She repeated.

“Charlize Theron” I admitted reluctantly.

“I see”

I held my breath knowing I’d just sparked her.