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“No, she doesn’t.” Tina responded thinking back to the very frank conversation that Peggy had with her. ”Peggy said that Helena and I might be kindred spirits. That maybe I was more like her than I cared to admit to myself. She said that love was my saving grace. I have the capacity to love and be loved which is something Helena doesn’t possess. I guess I also have the capacity to be as ruthless as she is. Maybe that’s why I haven’t totally let her go. Maybe if I could find something good in her then it wouldn’t be such a bad reflection on me that I was taken in by her.”
“A lot of people were taken in by her Tina but there is too much at stake to let our guard down. She hasn’t shown any remorse for anything that she’s done. She hasn’t tried to compensate anyone for the havoc she’s wreaked. She hasn’t reached out to anyone to ask for help. Only time will tell what will become of Helena Peabody, but we can’t sacrifice ourselves or our children to find out.”
“No. Nothing and no one mean more to me than you and our children Bette. I love you. I meant my commitment vows. I want the same things that you want. I won’t risk any of it. I’m going to make an appointment with Emma on Monday and start therapy with her. Listening to everything that you’ve said to me today really makes me realize how far you’ve come, and how stagnant I’ve been. Going through that couldn’t have been easy for you. You were dealing with all this while I was pregnant with Angie, yet you were so supportive of me and the baby even though I was causing you pain every day.”
“There was a lot of pleasure to counterbalance the pain. Knowing you were having our baby and that you recognized and wanted me to be Angie’s mother made it all worthwhile. Any time I thought I couldn’t reach the next level I would think of my daughter and pick myself up.”
“Instead of seeing that as the strength of your love I saw it as a weakness I could take advantage of. In some instances, I was more of a monster than Helena. I hope I can find that strength of character and my own peace and reassurance through therapy. I don’t want there to be any ambiguity about where and to whom my loyalties belong. You have all of me Bette, Heart, Body, Soul and Mind. I love you and want only you.”
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Bette was very clear about what Helena did to her. And she was rather explicit in explaining how she has overcome the damage that Helena caused. I hope that Bette’s message that her self-worth was no longer dependent on anyone and that would include Tina. Bette loves Tina and is dedicated to making her happy. But Tina’s view of Bette will no longer determine who she is. She will no longer be dependent on Tina’s approval to be happy and to achieve the goals she want for her life. And there was an admission that Tina had been manipulative of Bette during the time period she was with Helena. I think this is a big milestone. I hope that Tina follows through on her plan to see the therapist.
Tina also admitted that her sympathy for Helena was somewhat self-serving. She believes that if there is just a glimmer of goodness in Helena, then she will not look so much like a fool to the world for have been taken in by Helena. Hopefully, she will see that the search for that goodness could very well cost her the relationship with Bette she so desires. Its a sign that Helena’s hold on Tina still has some smoldering embers. Tina’s best path is to admit that she was manipulated by Helena and her methods and admit she was duped. She needs to recognize it for what it is. Tina assisted in almost destroying Bette and now she needs to put her guard up not to allow that to happen again. Not with Helena nor with anyone else.
This is a very interesting approach to the reconciliation of Bette and Tina. Its a magnificent way to show how they grow in their maturity and perspective of what went on when Bette and Tina were separated. It explains a lot in why Bette is having trouble getting to complete trust of Tina. Bette is being very reasonable in not trusting Tina until Tina shows that Helena will not and cannot be allowed to manipulate Tina again.
Excellent chapter… thankyou for posting. Look forward to more.
Very good comment Martha!
Couldn’t have said it better and i really hope Tina is going to contact Emma to go in therapy and work on herself like Bette did.
Bette loves Tina dearly but doesn’t need her to be able to live her life like she wants. I really hope that what Bette’s told Tina opens her eyes, she and i quote Martha, “admitted that her sympathy for Helena was somewhat self-serving. She believes that if there is just a glimmer of goodness in Helena, then she will not look so much like a fool to the world for have been taken in by Helena.”
Love how Angie enjoy her time with Peggy, Peggy may have lost one daughter but she got a whole new family with Bette, Tina and Angie.
Great chapter!
Martha your post is phenomenal. My personal take away is that Tina was a pretty willing participant. She did things to hurt Bette and she did them willingly. Yes, there was manipulation by Helena but Tina was complicit. Why? I think that is what Peggy sees. I think that is what Bette fears. And I think that is what Tina needs to learn – why she so badly hurt and almost ended Bette.
Martha and Bibi say it all perfectly! This is one of my favorite stories because I love the romance and special way Bette treats Tina and demonstrates her love with her actions and deeds. The inclusion of Angie as an integral character is perfect. As well as the addition of James, Peggy and Emma. I am so glad that Bette has her three people, especially Peggy. She is such a dear soul who loves Bette and Angie so very much. She cares for Tina but does not entirely trust her. Rightfully so. (For the sake of the family, Winnie is another who has been willing to overlook some of Tina’s pretty despicable behavior with Helena.) Bette’s three important people brought her back from the abyss when others abandoned her and Bette knows this. It is sad that this Helena remains a factor in Bette’s life and future with Tina but that is on Tina. It was long past time for Bette to lay it all on the line. Tina as represented in your story really is the weakest link. No more buts Tina. Not if you expect a life with Bette. No – Helena was good to me, she was misunderstood, she had her good points, she took care of me, she helped me gain my autonomy (have come to despise that term), I owe her a lot, Peggy is unfair to disown her daughter, no more freaking excuses Tina. Enough! That Tina was so incredibly complicit in such ruthless behavior towards Bette remains troubling. I was not sure Tina should see Emma as Bette and Emma are so close but Tina desperately does need therapy. Then I realized Emma knows the entire story so maybe she is perfect! Hammer it home Emma! One day Helena will reach out and on that day how Tina responds will tell the tale regarding her future with Bette. That Bette went to the most extreme and darkest place imaginable and contemplated and began the act of ending her life due to the actions of Helena and Tina should scare the absolute wits out of Tina. And cause her to feel total shame and to recognize the magnitude of her role once and for all. She does need to learn and own up to why she was able to willingly and with such malice hurt Bette so very easily. Because Bette has made her intentions very clear:
“I’m going to build a fortress around my family. She won’t be able to get close unless you let her in Tina. I love you Tee. I will always love you. We promised each other that we would take care of the other’s heart. We promised that our love would last forever. We promised never to intentionally hurt one another. We promised our unfailing commitment and eternal love. These rings that we wear and the rings that we gave Angie are symbolic of the sacred promises that we’ve made to each other as a couple and as a family. I don’t want to lose you Tee. I can’t bear the thought of losing you again, but I can’t be with you at the risk of losing myself, my life, and everything I hold dear. Tina everyone accepts that Helena is poison. Peggy and I have joined forces against her, and we are going to protect our own – but Tina we are only as strong as our weakest link. Right now, you are our weakest link.”
I love this Bette and admire her words so much. Frankly the Helena in this story is a vampire and a vampire can only enter a home if invited in. The ball is clearly in Tina’s court. Tina minimizes Bette’s words and invites Helena in at her own peril. I suspect Helena’s return will be sooner rather than later. Bette is very clear. No more gray areas, no two sides to every story, no more ambiguity. BAT2012 – You are my hero! Looking forward to the next chapter.
Happy to see a post on one of my favourite stories.
I adore this Bette and love her relation ship with Peggy.
Thank you for posting BAT, look forward to more
Stay safe
SG
The comments from all of you are soooo “mic-dropping RightOn”!!!
Bette being so determined to understand herself, and becoming willing to be transparent in a way free of guilt-generation toward Tina is so refreshing!
And consequently, Tina’s heart finally had to reveal the ruthlessness of her own soul. She was as cruel as H, but had a sweeter personality. Tina acknowledged that SHE is the monster that easily projected cruelty on another person.
I’m hoping she makes haste to visit Emma to take up the task of discovery and healing.