“I like your hair the way it is.” Dana said as she snaked her arms around my waist, pressing her lips to my neck as I leaned back into her.

I look at her in the mirror behind me and smile. “Yeah, but I’m almost like a dee jay now so I think that I should have cooler hair. Maybe some kind of spikes or something.”

Dana giggles into my neck and I do my best to scowl at her in the mirror as she looks up and meets my eyes. “Honey, maybe you should work up to spikes. Maybe just get a trim first.”

I give in and laugh as Dana giggles again, probably trying to picture me in a Mohawk. I close my eyes and think for the millionth time how good Dana feels against me and open them to find her staring at me intently in the mirror. “Seriously.” I say, genuinely wanting her opinion about my hair appointment today with Shane. “What do you think I should do with it? I should change it right? Maybe let it grow again?”

Dana looks at me for at me for a moment and then gives me one of my favorite smiles. I know a lot of them, but this one still has me puzzled. I’ve asked her a few times what she’s thinking when she smiles that particular smile, but she has yet to relent to my questioning. “I think you’re perfect just like this.” Her smile widens into one I can recognize as she steps back and turns on the shower. A moment later and she’s naked and I doubt I’ll even make it to my hair appointment…

I smile fondly and open my eyes to discover the harsh reality of me staring at my own reflection. My eyes automatically search behind myself in the mirror resting angrily on the empty spot that was yours. Tears well up in my eyes and I swipe harshly at my cheeks. It’s not the first time in recent weeks that my anger has caught me off guard. I can never tell what I’m angry about and this time is no different than the rest. I look up at the mirror again and I have a sudden urge to put my fist into my own face. I grit my teeth and will myself to turn away from the mirror. My anger begins to fade as I slowly make my way back to the bedroom to sit on the corner of my bed.