The dream comes back to me as I sit on the bed and stare at the emptiness that is slowly threatening to drown me. I know what it is. I know what the dream is and I didn’t even have to consult anyone. For once I have myself all figured out. It’s our last moment together. Leave it to you to make your good bye so subtle. If I had known that it was the last time that I would see you, the last time that I would touch you, I would have made it better. I keep hearing you over and over again. Those three words that you spoke to me before you faded away. The softness as you spoke them. At the time I thought that you were tired. That it was all the energy that you had, but now I know. You were saying good ye and I didn’t even recognize it. And now I hear my own reply and I cringe physically at the tone of my voice because it’s the part I most regret. The part that scares me the most. It the reason that I keep having these dreams. I don’t know if you knew how much I meant those words. I don’t want you to have died without knowing how I felt about you.

Another flash of anger causes my cheeks to burn and I know that there is only one way I am going to get any rest tonight, and considering what I have to do tomorrow I’ll take it. I spot my jeans laying on the floor from earlier and I pull them over my legs. My keys are laying on the table next to the door and I grab them as I head down to my car…

LARA

I’m glad your finally sleeping. It took you longer than usual and I feel the concern in my heart as I remember the way you looked when you showed up here tonight. It’s been getting worse lately. Your visits have been more frequent as of late and I know you haven’t been sleeping at all on the nights that I don’t see you. Your curled into a ball on the far side of the bed, far away from me. You never want to be close to me after we’re through and it doesn’t really bother me because I know it’s because you still miss her. I can see it every time you come here. The others think that you just need time, but I think it’s something more…