“I promise Al, I’ll make sure I clear things up with Tina” Bette said

Bette drove to Tina house and let herself in as soon as she walked in the door she took a deep breath she swore she could smell Tina scent.  Bette loved being here this place was smaller than her house but it felt like home she loved all the personal touches Tina had put into this place it was so her, Bette was almost sad Tina wanted to move to a bigger place.

Bette placed Tina’s mail on the kitchen table and started watering Tina’s plants Tina loved having plants, she had a small herb garden by the kitchen window ‘Tina’s new place needs to have a back yard T, needs a garden’ Bette thought.

When she was done Bette walked to the bedroom it was strange being there without Tina, good strange she felt so at home here she went over and sat on the bed took one of Tina’s pillows brought in close to her chest and took a deep breath it smelled like Tina.  She loved to snuggles up to Tina’s neck and smell her she always smelled so good, Bette’s little habit of smelling Tina had become a joke between them, remembering that made Bette smile.

Bette noticed a picture on Tina’s night stand she reached to pick it up it was a picture of her and Tina at Bette’s house they were in the pool they were both wet. Tina had her hands on Bette’s face looking into her eyes smiling and Bette had her hands behind Tina’s neck foreheads touching, both so lost in each other they were apparently unaware someone had taken their picture.

Bette smiled, she was so lucky to have found Tina. Bette fell back onto the bed and stared at the ceiling, everything is going so well with Tina, Why am I afraid to give myself to her, to be totally honest with her? To give her my heart?

Bette thought back to Jodie, how she had given everything to her, shared a life with her planned a future with her only to have her break everything that ever meant anything to her trust, loyalty, faithfulness.  And now she was back, Bette didn’t love Jodie she was 100% sure of that, she felt nothing but contempt towards her, they only thing Bette felt was fear.  Bette was scared to get hurt again, terrified of being hurt, Bette knew Tina was not Jodie no not even close, but it still scared Bette, What if Tina left her? ‘I wouldn’t be able to go on if I lost her’.