Its Anna here as if you didn’t know. I miss you so much too, I cant believe its only been 2 weeks. How are you doing? I hope your meetings are going to plan because then you can get back here sooner. I know its not easy for you being back there and going through all of this stuff with Dana. Your right I do know the situation and I will always try and help you through this, but Alice you do know that in the end its what you feel to be right that will win out. So I’m going to try and give you a little bit of advice.

Firstly I know how close you are to all of your friends and count them as your family. Like everyone who tries to please their family your looking to please them, but you cant please everyone all the time. They are bound to realise that your relationship with Bette was completely different from the one you had with Dana. You went through a rough time, watching your life fall apart. You are not responsible for keeping your family apart, all you are guilty of is looking out for your self. Deep down they know you needed to get away to sort your head out. They may not like it and of course they want things back to how they were, but I do believe they understand. I see them with you when they visit and every single one of you shine so brightly. They want that all the time and I cant blame them because you light up everybody you meet. I know how much we would miss you if you moved back and it makes me realise how they feel. Alice your friends love you so much and only want what’s best for you. If that’s not getting back together with Dana they’ll accept it. Don’t ever fear that you are the reason for you all being apart.

I know we’ve been through how you were with Dana and how it scared you. After knowing you for 10 years, I still find it hard to believe. I’ve never seen the needy and insecure side of you, like you said you’ve put her behind you. Do you not think if you’ve laid that ghost to rest, that’s were she’ll stay?. Alice you cant live in the past, scared of the has been’ s. You are a different person to the one you were 10 years. Your strong, confident and secure in your self. When we first met you were none of that. You held yourself back, scared of getting hurt I suppose, you had walls built around yourself and a lot of insecurities. However in the past 10 years you’ve worked through them all and made peace with the person you used to be. I believe she’s gone and I also believe she is never coming back again. Now all you have to do is believe it. You can fight it, ***** you don’t need to fight it you know in your heart she’s not coming back.