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    The Power of Good-bye

    Story written on November 5, 2013 by Bette0Porter.
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    Story Shortlink: https://lesfan.com/?p=83395
    Author Notes:

    “The spell has been broken, I loved you so”

                I just wish it won’t be long. I wish I could sleep forever.

     

    6

    Chapter

    I yearn to say good-bye

                I left Kit’s house in an incredible rush. I was scared Kit was going to stop me so I won’t be able to do the thing I’ve been craving to do since I lost Tina. I start the car engine and head to a liquor shop. The stay is short since I have to buy just a bottle of Jack Daniels; it is going to help me to do it. I pay and quickly leave the shop. I start my vehicle and head to the beach… I reach my favorite spot. I was used to come here when I was feeling lonely and lost; this is one of those days, isn’t it? But I am going to say good-bye to these days really soon.

                I approach a big rock and I sit down, leaning with my back against it. This is the place where I grieved for everything bad happened in my life. Here I grieved for the loss of my baby boy; the loss of my father and now I will grieve for the loss of my life: Tina. I still have my baby girl, that’s true. But I don’t even know if I will be able to be her mother. That bitch of a social worker make me live a fucking hell. And Tina didn’t even bother to tell me that everything was gonna be fine. I feel so lost and weak. Bette Porter, the one that was always sure of herself isn’t here anymore. I don’t even know if there was a strong Bette at all. I think I’ve always been weak, and the affair is a demonstration. So, maybe it’s a good thing to let her be part of a family in which I won’t be part of the equation. She will have a dad and a mom that will love her… she will be fine.

                In the meantime I almost emptied the whole bottle. I drank half of its content. And I can start to feel a little dizzy. And strangely, I feel warm. A warmth that I haven’t been able to feel since things were starting to collapse between me and Tina. Then a slight breeze caresses my skin and I shudder. It’s cold again. It’s like death touched me, asking me to go with her. I lift my eyes to the sky and I sigh. It’s so beautiful it makes me sad. It’s sad that I want to leave all of this but I can’t help myself. I feel like I don’t belong here anymore. It feels like any chance to be able to make things better disappeared. I’ve been crucified for too long and just like Jesus Christ, I’m going to leave this world. The difference between me and him is that I am the sinner.

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    Comments

    1. Wow you wrote such a wonderful and beautiful story here. It is in a very sad way though. I would very like to see more of it. Please post more.

      • I’m glad you liked it. As I already said, I was thinking(and I’m pretty sure I will) about writing a sequel, but I’m working on something else at the moment.
        I won’t forget about this one, though. Thank you!

    2. Painful, beautiful just totally amazing writing. You have the talent to make us feel Bette’s anguish through your extraordinary writing. It requires a sequel.

    3. hey, dear! So, you do not you write it to the end of this story for that: “to be continued.” This was one of my favorites, what you wrote, and I was hoping it turns out that was Bette hallucinating or was the reality she saw?
      but I understand you.
      as I was once told, this is amazing story, with its painful way.
      please continue soon :-)

    4. It was so painful to read, how ever you did write it so good. I could really feel the pain Bette is feeling.

      I hope you will write the sequel.

      Call it weird, but i read this one more than once, before i decided to leave a comment.

      I know somebody who wanted to commit suïcide, so for me it’s hard to read.

      But like i already said, it’s beautiful written.

    5. Just read this again and it’s still so painful, but written so very well. Please don’t let this be the end of Bette….write a sequel. :)

    6. I always felt that was Bette problem, she love Tina more than she love herself and that’s not good. Tina treated bette horribly even though she cheated on her but with everything Tina did nobody deserves that kind of pain especially if that person is already broken…smh so sad

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