“That’s life Dane no one is perfect we all make mistakes I know I have and still am, ”she says as Tasha flashed through her thoughts.

“Me too, “she says looking at her.

“I have really enjoyed spending time with you and catching up it feels like old times it’s good to have my best friend back.”

“Aye, I don’t know Al you throw the title of best friend around to loosely.”

“What do you mean?”

“I’m saying I don’t deserve the title I did once a long time ago but now I feel I have a lot of work to do to re-earn it.”

“Dane no you don’t I——-.”

“I hurt you, “her admission caused a shock look to appear on her face, “We have been hanging out having a good time but have yet to address the elephant in the room, I’m calling it for what it is I hurt you Al and I think it wasn’t so much of what I did but how I did it.”

“It was a long time ago Dane and I didn’t make things any better it was just you were the love of my life and to lose you felt like death…..worse than death. To break up with me and then run straight into the arms of Lara was devastating.”

“Remember when Lara and I first hooked up and started dating?”

“Yeah, you were still in the closet and you felt like she was pushing you to come out before you were ready.”

“I couldn’t handle it, it wasn’t because I didn’t love her it was because I didn’t love myself not to care or give a damn what anyone including friends and family thought about me. Revealing who I really was so overwhelming I broke it off because I was scared and when we ran into each other again a year later those feelings returned with a vengeance, problem was at that time I was in a relationship with my best friend. I know you were trying to be understanding by agreeing to let me go to dinner with her and that had to be really hard. I wasn’t over her and although I was in denial deep down you could feel it too. I called you crazy and told you were jealous when in actuality you had every right to be. To be honest if the shoe was another foot and you went to dinner with an ex I would react the same way.”