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If I Fall: Chapter 11
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True, she was still hurt. And the pain she felt seemed nearly as palpable and intense as when Dana first left. But she was finally at a place now where she could accept what happened and not let it dictate how she lived her life. Which was exactly why she was ready to move on, and hoped that extending an olive branch to Dana would be a good start. She knew they had a long way to go to get back any semblance of their former friendship, but she was ready to start admitting to herself that she couldn’t eliminate Dana’s presence in her life completely. It just hurt too much to pretend otherwise.
Dana stared out at the water, watching the ebb and flow of the waves as they carried themselves onto the shore. She admired the inevitable crash that would occur as each wave inched closer to the shoreline, creating with it a mass of chaos and confusion beneath the water’s surface. And yet afterwards, with each new swell, the water managed to steady itself, flowing calmly onto the beach once again. She didn’t understand how it happened, but she wished she could find a way to behave like that. To at least calm the crashing of emotions inside of her long enough to deal with how she really felt. Dana figured she got the whole "crash" part right, but she was unsure how to steady herself and find the inner peace she had longed for in nearly every facet of her life.
Some days it seemed to her that no one really knew the inner struggle she was going through. And every time she tried to figure out what she needed in her personal life, she felt more confused than ever before. She knew she wanted to find love with a woman who made her heart jump out of her chest with anticipation every time she came near, and also one she could grow old with, who still made her feel that way with every touch, kiss or caress when they were both eighty years old. And when she honestly thought about who that was, the only face that came to mind was Alice’s. She could easily admit that she did have all those things with the writer, but finally having what she had wanted her entire life felt so foreign to Dana that she couldn’t accept it as reality.
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Hey Thank you great update. Gotta love that Danish. PPS.
I’m sorry, I can’t help it! I want danish together and if that means tainting Jules so you can no longer write him into this then yay! :P My plan is working mwahaha. As for that needy comment, uh em, no you don’t *shifts eyes nervously from side to side* I’m perfectly fine without an update from you. Do you buy that? This is Bradshaw saying you posted an awesome chapter once again and I’m mega jealous of your talent, over and out xx
Another great update! It was awesome, before, but I liked the additions too. Unlike your other readers I’m not quite ready for them to get back together. I don’t want Dana to suffer, but she has to be completely sure before she even gives a hint that she’s still interested in Alice. I’m sure Shane will figure it out – if she hasn’t already. :-) It’s so funny that De_Leish_ous is still calling Jules “him”. rofl I can’t wait for your next update.Yes, I got a little kick out of calling you busy. You left before noon? It’s official, I’m jealous. lol You’re right – Go Chargers! (But I sorta like the Ravens too.) Down with the Pats! lolThanks again for the update and the preview.
Aww, poor Dana. Sometimes I wish she’d quit with all the being scared and hiding her feelings crap, but this time she’s doing it for Alice’s sake, and I can’t help hurting for her a little bit. That’s such a tough situation to be in, and her guilt’s understandable, which somehow makes it even more sad. There was a lot of groundwork for a Danish romantic reconciliation in this update, and everything made complete sense in the context of both the storyline and the characters’ personalities. So yay. Oh, and as to the livejournal thing…I had a sneaking suspicion it was you just by the writing style, but I didn’t want to say that in case I was wrong because I’d look either insane or idiotic. But yay, I was right! Okay, I’ll stop babbling your life away now…love this story more every time you post!
It’s good that they have their friendship back on track. I can’t wait for Dana to tell Alice how she really feels though
Are you serious? How can a non-argument between these two be dissapointing? This chapter was more I than I exepcted! So will we have a slighlty drunk Alice (and Dana) in the next chapter. :)
so cute. what the heck is dana gonna do? i really liked the line “Dana’s heart seemed to pound in her chest, making sure she knew it was still beating just for Alice. ” how poetic! post soon.
Great update just wish it was 20 pages longer. My heart is breaking for Dana a little bit, poor thing. Granted she did it to herself. Love the intensity you are building and can’t wait to see what happens.
YAY … I finally caught up after not reading any fanfic in about 2 weeks. I absolutely can’t wait for your next update!
Awesome story.Nice to see them talking. hope it stays that way.Please post more soon.