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If I Fall: Chapter 24
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After Jules left on Sunday, fully aware that no one else besides Dana Fairbanks would ever completely have Alice’s heart, an overwhelming urge overtook Alice to run directly back into Dana’s open arms. Nevertheless, there was some greater force keeping her rooted to the floor beneath her, preventing her from making any move at all. That force was fear, of course, and Alice could recognize it for what it was…although that knowledge did nothing to fix her current immobility problem.
The only thing she was able to do was to do nothing. So, once the door closed quietly behind her newest ex-girlfriend, and she recognized that her current paralysis was triggered by fear, Alice came to the gradual decision to take a break from all the craziness of the past 24 hours and just do nothing. Little did she know, however, that there really was no escaping the craziness when it seemed to be coming from inside her very own head.
Not to mention the excessive amount of guilt now gravely weighing down upon her as well. Jules was such an important part of her life, the only person, in fact, that made her feel normal for awhile there when her world seemed to be spiraling out of control. And the more Alice thought about it, the more she was able to recognize that her ability to stand on her own two feet again was due mostly in part to the musician’s constant support and understanding. She was the first person, besides maybe Helena, that Alice felt she could truly confide in without expecting a weary look in return or some sort of judgment-laden response. Jules was fully aware of what Alice’s life looked like at its worst, and somehow, without any hesitation or doubt, she still wanted to be with her in spite of it. No questions asked, Jules was there when Alice was quite sure that no one else was, least of which, Dana.
Somehow she unconsciously came to associate her own independence with her unspoken dependence on Jules, which made it all the more alarming for Alice to find herself without her now. Regardless of all the strides she made standing on her own two feet again, it was still something of a small comfort to have the blonde standing there beside her. After all, Jules was the one who convinced her to enter into therapy, the one who helped her realize that numbing herself with pain pills and booze wasn’t the only way to make it through the day, and the one who subtly nudged Alice to spend more time with her friends in hopes of reconnecting to the family she had isolated herself from. Her relationship with Jules was everything Alice needed to find her way through the darkness.
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First of all, welcome back!!! Second of all…. I thought she called Dana!!! Anyway, I love Jules too. OMG I hate to admit but I love this wavering thing. Yes, all the while it pains me to see Alice and Dana suffer, I actually enjoy it. I must be M out of S.M….. Anyway… I am so freaking glad you’re back! I was longing for you and Alice’s “sex” voice. Gah, what an expression. Yes, indeed, I love her voice. Alice needs to get some courage and talk to Dana. Afterall, one she loves is DANA!! :) hee heeeeThank you so much for posting.!! Plz plz post soon!
Ok just so you know i have loved ur story from day one and sorry i havent commented sooner just wanted to be up to date before i did!! Althou not reli tht happy with u right now JULES??? Why she goin to Jules for?? I know its hard for her to go to Dana after everything but after that fucking hot Bathroom scene everyone inc Alice herself knows tht those two are meant to be together and need to start taking steps towards it even if it is slow …. please lol!!! Anyway rant over reli reli love ur story cant wait for ur next update lol!! :) PPS x x
please update again
You really love this whole cliffhanger business, don’t you? I might be a little upset if you didn’t do it so well. I’m really glad you updated, and this isn’t even close to being filler. It’s necessary for the story, if Danish didn’t wallow in some sorta thought bubble for awhile after everything that’s happened, it wouldn’t make any sense. I just hope Jules doesn’t take advantage of Alice’s emotional state. Not that I think she’d do that deliberately or anything, but…yeah. Okay I’ve been rambling for like ever here, but what I want you to take away from this dissertation is that you rule muchly.
8 Pages is not filler, It was pretty damn good…Please get Dana and Alice in the same room…Love how you write your A&D!
OK. So your filler makes my filler look even more like filler. ;-D Seriously — this was a great chapter. I understand that Alice is going through a lot, but, she really should have called Dana. Leaving her hanging wasn’t very nice. I’m glad Dana is committing herself to the relationship in a way she didn’t the first time around. Thank goodness Shane, Tina and Boo were there to help Dana. I love how your articulated both Alice and Dana’s thoughts on the situation. It is interesting how they both are thinking the same way — what Alice needs is what Dana is prepared to give her. But they need to talk to realize that. Argh. Bad Alice! I understand her reasoning, but, what if Dana sees Jules over there? Does Alice know Dana is leaving soon for NY? Can I beg you to PPS?
oh i missed you swiss.. so happy about the update oh yeh..i love reading what u write i could just read it all day lol wat an interesting ending i hope i dnt have to wait another month for an update BUT if that is wat it takes then i will thank you!!!!!!
Whoosh! Ok it’s taken me ohhh-4 months and some odd days to comment but here i am! PLEASE update, i just cannot stand playing out all of the possible scenarios in my head. You have really done an excellent job with this whole adventure. I just have this dying urge to know what happens-how does it go with Jules-with our beloved Danish….what happens? Only you know and i am begging for an update or even a small glimpse of Alice and Dana happy and together. But another couple of months wont bother me if that’s how long it takes for you to post somemore of this beautifully written story. Thanks so much swiss!
This is the first Danish fic I have read and still one of the best. I’ll die if you don’t finish it, lol. I need HAPPY DANISH!!! Please update!!!