So at that moment I decided enough was enough. I didnt want to be the only one who knew he used coke.. what if something bad would happen to him? Then I was the only one who could have prevented it.

So you knew all along what was going on with him and no one else did?

No.. I was the only one who knew why he was so aggressive all the time, I respond as I help putting the groceries in big paper bags.

Really Carmen.. Im so thankful. He was about to throw his life away and look at him now..,

A job.. a woman and a baby on the way! Pretty good huh, I say with a big grin.

She nods and smiles sweetly. Yeah, she says softly as if she cant believe it herself.

It was the fourth day without her and I cleaned up the whole house. So not rock and roll. God, I can hardly recognize the place. Jenny comes home and shrieks, her hands covering her mouth in surprise and disbelief.

Oh my god! Its so..

Clean? I finish for her with a grin.

Yeah!, she says and she just stands there in the doorway, her mouth falling open. I chuckle and sit down on the couch, lighting a cigarette. Jenny drops her bag on the floor and sits next to me, amazement still filling her eyes.

Why didnt you wait.. till I got home, so I couldve helped you, Jenny says slowly as her eyes wander through the living room as if she sees it for the first time.

I shrug. It just gave me something to do.. I was bored as hell, I say neutrally as I scratch my neck.

Jenny is quiet for a while. But its.. I mean its unfair to you.

Jesus Jenny, its okay, really. I just didnt know what else to do.

You miss her dont you? Jenny asks. She doesnt mean to tease or rub it in, its just kindness.

Yeah, I say quietly and I take a deep drag.

You know.. thats good, Jenny says nodding.

How could that be good? I groan. Missing her is not good. At all. God, I cant even sleep normally without her. Turns out, that without feeling her warm body next to mine, I just cant seem to sleep as soundly. A body only 5’4 tall but I cant do without it. Fucking great.