“She would…uh….offer me to her friends. You know the bored Hollywood wives….and I did it. I thought if I did she would like me, and we could be together….you know?”

“Yeah I know. It was on and off with us….never in her bedroom…always at the party…always on her yacht…..and then I got fired and I didn’t know why.”

“She told me that she fired you because you showed interest in me….she didn’t like it…”

“Interesting…she pointed you out to me more than once….you never saw me. There was one time that stuck out more than any other. You where leaning over the rail of her yacht smoking a cigarette…..some woman was talking to you…she was trying to get to fuck her where you both stood…but you took your hands away and I assumed told her to go away…..then you went back to your cigarette You looked sad and lost and alone…..Cherie said that you where best thing she ever had……we had already met….maybe a few months earlier…..I wasn’t fired then…..anyway…she had this tone in her voice the more I looked at you. I wanted you to see me so bad……but you never turned around…..she had been talking the whole time and I didn’t hear her. That Monday I got the axe….I didn’t even think it had anything to do with her let alone you….that bitch.”

Carmen she drank her wine and looked off into the nothing. She was angry and contemplating something…My mind drifted back to that night. I had enough, dad had called me and asked me what I was doing with my life. I had told him that I didnt know. He suggested that I give figuring it out a chance…

“Its funny cause that was the last night I went to her…..I didn’t want to see her again after that….then I got caught up with work and trying out for Shade of blue….I don’t think she even noticed I wasn’t around till like 7 months later.” I said laughing to myself.

“I know what you mean. I had a lot of work lined up. And Bruce was losing his battle with himself……I think that most of all I was sort of done mourning the loss of our child…I really wanted to stop fucking around with Hollywood, I needed something more. So I started taking roles that where not the norm, those sci-fi movies and action movies. I didn’t want to be in Basic Instinct 2 you know?”