“… Carmen… ok I’m scared but… I’m not afraid of dying… I know it sounds weird but… look… all my life I’ve not been little miss nice girl so… what ever it is I get… I deserved”

“….”

“Carmen… I know it’s took late and you probably don’t want to hear it but I have to…. I’m sorry”

“Don’t”

“Listen… I am… I am always going to regret that decision… cause for 5 years I’ve been trying to get you out my head… to failed miserably… I loved you before and I still do… I know you are the love of my life…. You’re it for me… I want to merry you, I want to built you a house and a life with you… and I know that now…”

“Now you know that now”

“yes Carmen… in someway I always knew, but now… now its clear… now… I know… and yes this situation is bad but at least what is happening to me, the illness… this… this made you come to me… cause I didn’t have the balls to come to you… fate made me see you again… maybe for the lat time”

“Fate…”

“…..You know In the eight grades, my English class had to read Romeo and Juliet, for extra credit. Mrs. Snyder made us act out all the parts. Mark Macadam’s was Romeo… As fate would have it… I was Juliet. All the other girls were jealous, but I had a slightly different take… I told Mrs. Snyder that Juliet was an idiot. For starters she falls for the one guy she knows she can’t have, and then she blames fate for her own bad decision. Mrs. Snyder explained to me that when fate comes into play, choice sometimes goes out the window. Mrs. Snyder said I’d be lucky if I ever had that kind of passion with someone. And that if I did, we’d be together forever. She believed that for the most part, love is about choices. most of the time. And that sometimes despite all your best choices and all your best intentions, fate wins anyways. It’s about putting down the poison and dagger and making your own happy ending….And because I’m not with you, I can’t be that happily ever after person. You’re the reason I can’t believe in that”