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Lest I Forget (5b)
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She’d tried to hide it from me for years, and I think in large part that was due to her fears about the cancer taking me away. Before the disease had come into our lives, before I broke her heart by leaving her when she was the most vulnerable, she’d kissed me without worrying about me leaving her. I knew even then that she was sure in her love for me, and to be honest it was terrifying, that I could feel that much love in her kiss.
After the cancer, it was different. Obviously, since I’d broken her heart before, she was hesitant to feel for me that deeply again. The cancer had hurt her in that regard, too…even when I’m sure she knew I loved her, she couldn’t be guaranteed I wouldn’t leave.
Still, as time had gone by, she’d started to kiss me the way she had that first time, when she first fell in love with me. When we first fell in love with each other. And even now, with her laying in that hospital bed, unable to move beyond a few rudimentary and basic motions, I could still feel that love in her kiss. Knowing it was there and knowing that she couldn’t express it, that she never would again, had tears coursing down my face as I pulled back from her. There were tears in her eyes too, and as I hugged her tight all I could think was how utterly fucking depressing this entire thing was. She was the only thing that mattered to me, and I admit that freely. I love our kids, their kids and all our friends, but honestly, without Alice I’m nothing. I never was and I never would have been if it hadn’t been for her, and thinking over all the good times was so bittersweet it almost killed me.
I did my best to stave off another breakdown before it could begin, but not by very much. I think she knew, though. Just the way she looked at me was enough to know that. Still, I couldn’t make her feel bad again. I felt like since she’d been in here, she’d spent more time feeling sorry for me than she had for herself, and I wouldn’t let her feel that way anymore.
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AWESOME! I love how you have Dana being so in-love with Alice, just utterely and completely. That is how I saw it happening on the real show ‘if’ that ding dong IC didn’t knock TV Dana off…ugh it still bugs me, why, okay I can rant on that one forever…back to your story…I truly love this story, so well written you can actually visualize the scenes. And yeah nice touch with the shower, I love it! Nice work!
No, you can’t let her slip away yet, there are years and years of stories to be told … and you must tell it as wonderfully as you have up to now.
I forgot to add this to my comment last night. After watching the Afterellen’s vlog: Worst Lesbian TV Moments where Killing Dana was the #1, I was really bumped out all over again. Then your post came along in the early hours in the morning made me feel a whole lot better. I just wanted you to know that. Honestly, it is this alternative universe of fanfics which gives me a little comfort and plenty of laughs. I cannot stress enough just how much miss DF on the show. Thanks MT and all you Danish writers again.
gasp. But I know you will get Alice back, I just know it. And I love how much in love they were back in the days and still are of course. It’s wonderfully desribed by you. Great.
I agree with MaGoose, this chapter really was a rollercoaster of emotions. I loved the whole interaction with Shane and Bette . And then the kiss Alice gave to Dana right before she slipped back in her coma. Poor Dana. :( I hope Alice will come by for a little while. *keeps fingers crossed*
“So fucking cute”, and Shane was sooo effin’ right! I agree with ACH21, there’s no doubt in my mind that Dana would be consummed body and soul with her love for Alice. It’s very touching, *sigh*. I also have to add that the humor in this story is cracking me up, spot on there MT! I am anxiously waiting to hear more about their life together…
Running out of hot water, fantastic. Bette & Shane’s note was even better. Keeping the passport with the sex toys, LMAO! How the hell do you eat crabs legs with one hand? Ha-ha-haa. S was a real good friend getting D her 3 boxes of seasickness pills. The sunrise scene was perfect. I think this Alaskan honeymoon cruise was just what the doctor ordered. And just when I was having fun reading this update, A might have slipped back into a coma. My heart goes out to D and thank god Charlie and S showed up at the right time. Please let A stay for a little bit longer. Thank you MT for another awesome update. I hope you will be able to post another one before your trip if you have the time.
noooooooooooooooooooooo :'(
Incredible chapter, MT! I started to cut and paste my favorite lines to comment on. However, I realized that it was most of the chapter. What a roller coaster of humor, drama, sadness, romance, sex… I’ve said it before and I will keep saying it: You rock at writing Danish. I trust that Alice will be back from the coma — I know you have a lot more to say about their years together. Thanks so much for the update!!
at last I get a chance to read some stories and I headed straight for yours. This story is fantastic you write so well and are developing the long happy life together that we know this pair could have had beautifully. I expectantly await the next chapter!!!!!