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    Missing. 2

    Story written on January 9, 2007 by New Dawn Fades.
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    So much of me has been about her…..

     

     

    So I got up wandered out of my hut to the shaman. He asked how was my sleep. He asked me about why I came to the island. He asked if I needed my wounds treated. I laughed I was hollowed out by Carmen’s absence that I didn’t notice the cut on my arm…the bruises…my head…I almost got shot in the head…..

     

     

     

    So I let him heal me. Clean my wounds. It goes like this for days. We ate in silence. He changed my bandages. I drank the murky coconut drink, watched the sun rise. Watched the sun set. Walked the length of the island…hid from the rain. Found a waterfall jumped from the top of the cliff kinda wanting the jagged rocks to end my misery already. Nothing just the hard feel of the water and the roar of the waterfall. I shouted. I screamed my pain. I yelled and I yelled till I had no voice at all.

     

     

    Days turned nights. Nights turned to weeks. Did I want to talk? No. Did I want to eat? No. Did I want to sleep no. Did I want to question why she left me …..Again? Fuck yeah I did. That was my first list.

     

     

    10. She left me because I have homicidal tendencies?

     

    9. She left me because she finally realized that fucking me is not love?

     

    8. She left me because she can’t get anything done when I am near her?

     

    7. She left because she is a heartless bitch?

     

    6. No, she left because you are a “broken thing”…..her words.

     

    5. She left because of the piss poor example I was setting for her son.

     

    4. She left because she didn’t know what else to do?

     

    3. She left because logic and reason escaped her?

     

    2. She left because she is afraid?

     

    1. She left because she does not love you.

     

     

    I was convinced that Carmen saw something in me that sealed her fear. I racked my brains for days about it.. I talked to myself on the beach but I didn’t answer anything. I didn’t come to any dramatic conclusion.

     

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    2. Yeah Carmen! Go get your woman! I am glad she is finally admitting she can’t live without her. The list was heartbreaking! Can’t wait to see what you have in store for us next.

    4. I’m completely captivated by your fics.I must say I like that they are apart because we get to see the yearning they have for eachother. I especially love reading about their love from Carmen’s point of view.So looking forward to the next update!:)

    5. Better late than never Carmen, but I do wonder how long it will take for her to find Shane in the big ol world. When she does find her it will definitley be interesting!

    6. “But give the kid a break. He is a little boy who lost something close to him.” Not to mention he was kidnapped by some loon and probably saw his grandparents’ violent murder. To say the little guy has experienced some traumatic events would be an understatement. I totally get that. It’s just that the whole situation made me think about parents, the way parents raise their kids, the way the kids react to the world around them, character, etc. It was my first and honest reaction to what I read, and, for the most part, it still is (just tryin’ to be honest here). Now, I may not like certain behaviors (in any character of any story — it’s just bound to happen SOMEtime), but if they *make sense* for the character and *make sense* for the story, who am I to argue, right? And, in this case, they totally make sense for both. Anywho, the story makes me think, react, and reflect (as you may already know. LOL!), and it always makes for good discussion (whether it’s dissecting a character, discussing dynamics, or deciphering lyrics). I’m always excited to read things like that. It’s not just some ho hum read that I’ll forget as soon as I’m finished with it. I look forward to whatever you bring to your adoring audience (which most certainly includes me).

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