Bette is taken aback, Tina never talked to her in that way.

Seeing Tina rubs her face with frustrate, the brunette doesn’t know what she should do to make her girlfriend feels better.

“I’m sorry…” Tina says, she buries her head in her hands. “I’m sorry.”

“It’s okay, T.” Bette says, she carefully pats on Tina’s shoulder, being aware not to give too much pressure to the blonde.

“No! It’s not okay!” Tina yells. “You saw me in that room! You knew what I am going to do next! Don’t you think I am a murderer? Huh? Don’t you?”

“T…” Bette sounds sad.

“Yes, I planned for this, I planned to let Sebastian Cooper put me in the driving seat, I have to do it, I have to kill Carmen, I need to be the one pull the trigger…and fuck! I’ve never kill a human being before! Yes, everything I imputed to her was what I did, I am a monster.”

“Tina…”

“Oh, just say it! Bette! Admit it! Tell me I am the filthy, evil and merciless killer! Who destroy others life and is going to kill an actual person. Tell me I don’t deserve to be a human! Tell me…”

Tina suddenly stop speaking when a pair of warm arms surround her. The embrace is so tender and soft, Tina allows Bette to slowly pulls her close to her body, let her lean on the brunettes’ chest. The blonde can feel her girlfriend’s heart beating slow, as if it’s trying to comfort her.

By listening to Bette’s heartbeat, Tina gradually calm down.

Bette knows, she knows why Tina is reacting like this, it’s the side effect of the drug addicted, her girlfriend is carrying multiple kinds of emotion and stress. Guiltiness, hurtfulness, regretfulness…blaming herself while she needs to keep the plan going on. They are in the middle game, Tina has been through long enough, former troubles and current issue all come to her in the same time, Bette is actually amazed that it’s took Tina long enough to breakdown until now.

“You are just stressing out, T…” Bette rocks her body back and forth with Tina’s, her hand slowly puts her lover’s back. “If it’s make you feel better, it’s fine to you to yell to me… hit me or curse me, whatever you want to do is alright as long as you feel better…just remember one thing, you are not a murderer or a killer…What you did in the room was trying to find a way to survive, you are using your way to fight this war…there is no people who are truly innocent, we are all in the same swamp. I know you didn’t want it to go this far, and Carmen did too, but she knew what she has to face, you are just completing her wish.”