“I want to know you, better than I know myself I want to feel the end, and to enjoy the consequence”

 “What’s wrong with you?” Shane lips thinned with anger “You acting weird,” she said. Jenny glared at her “Weird?” Shane refused to meet her gaze “I mean it’s not like you to be acting this reckless.” She paused, looking around at the dance floor glaring at a couple of girls that were ogling Jenny. “Who are you to say!!! Go back to your girlfriend you guys seems to understand each other very well. I won’t weird you out any longer” said Jenny storming out.

“I’m playing the game the one that will take me to my end”

Shane calls out to Jenny, as the smaller girl walks away into the crowd. She tries to follow but feels a hand holding her back. She looks as Jenny dances with random girls and rubbing herself at these strangers, catching attention as she swirls around the dance floor exuding sexuality.

 “I’m waiting for the rain to wash up who I am”

Angrily Shane turns around with intentions to tell the person who held her back to ***** off, but is taken aback when she sees Bette looking worriedly at her. “You don’t have to take care of Jenny. She’s a big girl” she states. Shane sighs “I need to be here for her. I feel this whole ordeal between her and Carmen its my fault.” Bette looks at her friend lovingly and states “You really love her uhn?” Shane blinks a few times “L-Love? Who said anything about love,” she says nervously, unconsciously shrinking away from her. “You didn’t have to say it” Bette says smiling at her clueless friend.

She got away from Bette as soon as she could. Walking fast between the crowd deep in thought until she bumps into her girlfriend. Looking unusually serious Carmen says “I was looking for you. We have to talk”. And just as she heard the first words Shane realized they meant trouble, but she consented anyway.

In the middle of Carmen’s break-up speech Shane was faced for the second time of the night with the question she most feared. She sat facing Carmen and wondered why she couldn’t tell her she was not in love with Jenny. The sentence ‘Saying it ain’t gonna make it true’ insisted on ringing in her head. She wished she didn’t love her, it made her feel vulnerable and weak. But love it’s not something you could choose. If she had a choice then she’d pick Carmen. However she did choose. The choice had its root so deep entwined in Shane’s heart that she couldn’t even start to imply the ramifications.