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    Missing. 8

    Story written on February 4, 2007 by New Dawn Fades.
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    Closer….no hesitation.

     

     

    “I know you don’t.”

     

     

    “I give you my life. My whole existence….My everything….I don’t have anything without you…..I just don’t….I think the thing we both need to realize is this is it. We can not keep on doing this to each other. We can’t. I could have stayed under and died never knowing what really happened thinking all along that that lie was my life. I couldn’t do it. I need to be near you. I need you in my life.”

     

     

    Carmen she cries when I tell her that. I cry when I realize what I have said. I wipe the tears from my eyes trying to maintain a cool I no longer had….. I roll over and kiss her on the cheek.

     

     

    “Get some sleep….ok….it will be better in the morning….don’t worry…”

     

     

     

    I smooth her hair back and kiss her forehead. She falls asleep. I lay there for a while with her till I know she is deep in her sleep. I love her scent, I love the smoothness of her. I can’t even think about anything else when I am with her. I slip under and away from her missing her body heat. I walk over and watch the rain and sky.  

     

     

     

    “….Mmmmmm……… Shane?” She says eyes closed….she must be dreaming.

     

     

    “…Carm?”

     

     

    “What we’ve found…..we can never stop….”

     

     

     

    Some last thought. She is out cold. I lie down next to her. Feeling her warmth again, feeling her all over me, inside me but not. Outside I am cool calm staying calm to keep her calm…..letting her sleep knowing she needs her rest. Inside, inside is another story. Inside my brain hurts. It’s a pounding slamming feeling against my skull. It’s a tribal beat banging just for her. I need her so much. Its gotta be the dying thing. I need to feel her close to me. More so than ever. And that is really saying something.

     

     

    I do nothing at first. Just slow my breathing to match hers. Settling down and down I lean into her and feel her ear with my lips. I whisper to her everything I can’t say to her. Everything that makes me feel weak to admit. I say soft not wanting to wake her. The sound of the sea makes it easy.

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    1. Shane seems to be coming to a realization about herself while Carmen seems to be slightly falling apart. The call to Marco was sweet. Really are happy that you gave us the warning about your stories ending. You’ll def. be missed.

    2. godddddddd yoou are making thing worse by gicing us a great fucking update… haha i willl fucking miss you everyday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but yea lifes like that …. anyways loved the update but i’m scared of whats next…

    3. I know I haven’t written in awhile. Life has been keeping me on my toes and keeping me from your wonderful stories. I’m really sad to hear that you are going to stop soon, but I got to read some of the best writing I’ve seen, and I will be able to keep that forever. I will really miss the world you created, and the hotness that is Sharmen. I’m honored that you call me your original fan, and for telling me that my comment so long ago made you think about this story and finally post it (that truely made me happier than you know). It’s been a wild ride, and for all our sakes, I hope you’ll change your mind and dream up another fantastic Sharmen adventure! I know this isn’t goodbye, and honestly I don’t know why I’m being so melodramatic. Anyway, until next time…

    5. so glad you are back. i’ve not missed any of your stories. actually, i am not good to crit or advise even admire. but you know what you’ve made my day and night. thanks you sweetie!

    6. This is one of the best updates yet! Knowing that it may be close to the last one is hard to swallow, but it has been a joy reading this saga! I hope Carmen and Shane get what they have been fighting for all along; a happy ending with their little boy!

    7. Wowza! What a way to end a chapter, there. I’m still wrapping my head around the fact that this story will end. :( Sad times, sad times. So this update, like your previous one, was bittersweet. Of course it was a great couple chapters, but knowing that they’re one of the last few kind of dampens the spirits. Sad times. But enough of that! I wish you luck on the awards, because you honestly deserve it (you got my vote in a few places).

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